slowly breaking

I want to stop

To stop writing about how much I love you

About how much it hurts seeing you loving someone else

When I’m right here next to you but miles away apart

 

Is it wrong though to want you in my life so bad

Knowing that I can be the best thing that has ever happened to you

Or maybe you don’t want the best but the perfect one

 

No one would ever understand how much it hurts

Having this huge baggage of emptiness inside me

Such that I feel ashamed of how much you mean to me

Because without you I feel like nothing

 

They don’t see me screaming and slowly dying

And yet nobody can save me except you

But where are you

When I need you like an addiction I can’t overcome

 

Soaked in tears every night

For the man I so deeply love