It's All My Fault

 

 

 

The jealousy inside me

It’s all my fault

It is just that

I don’t understand this

 

You and I … Us

It seems so easy

Yet love is not

I feel so silly

 

This pain within me

It’s my fault always

You were simply being

Kind, sweet, gently, friendly

 

It’s not your fault

Or maybe it is

I mean you knew

What you were saying

 

Making me fall deeply

With your enduring smile

With your sweet manner

With your loving words

 

It’s my fault completely

I misunderstood your words

I took it differently

I fell in love

 

How could you know

That the words spoken

Loving you tenderly sweetheart

Would make me fall

 

Silly girl I guess

That’s what I’ve been

Falling in love deeply

With sweet, caring words

 

How painful the realization

You’ve heard the song

Love’s one way street

Today I’m just another

 

I’m curious, I wonder

Is it a game

Is it a bet

How many can I

 

I think its me

You said nice things

I read too much

Into your tender thoughts

 

Pain in my heart

That’s what I have

But do you care

There is no answer

 

I want to stop

Loving you … truly, deeply

But my heart doesn’t

Understand my reasonable mind

 

Even tearing my heart

Out of my chest

Would not stop me

From loving you always

 

When its about love

Thoughts can be exhausting

The heart and mind

Can play funny games

 

Trying to sort out

My thoughts and feelings

So confusing right now

Thousands of miles away

 

That doesn’t stop me …

Doesn’t keep my heart

From falling in love

Or breaking completely apart

 

The truth is this  

I am in love

And the jealousy within

It's all my fault

 

 

 

March 28, 2008

Reviews

[Antony]

This is just perfect, I love this poem, how many times has something like this happened? many, especially when someone is interpreted wrong. I cn relate to this, we love to be in love and just the slightest hint can put us in this type of situation, that is how I read this, or maybe you are talking to your muse, either way, you have fallen in love. Great write, your emotions are put right out there, I like this stanza the most.

How could you know
That the words spoken
Loving you tenderly sweetheart
Would make me fall

Antony

[Mr. Lopez]

This poem had me up to my eyeballs in an emotional soup of words that left me hungry for more. I love how you blamelessly expose your love for all to see. Opening up your heart at the risk of being broken is a silly little game we play with our heart on the table.The stakes are high but the reward too tempting to pass up. We fall and fall again and have no one to blame but ourselves. This poem is absolutely wonderful ! I admire your honesty with yourself and the strength that it takes to admit your weakness. Great great poem!

[No One Important]

It is not your fault, if he was unclear, he needs to make things crystal. One of the most annoying things I can think of is vagarity in language when talking to others of the opposite sex. I am appalled to think that people need to sugarcoat and gloss over feelings when they do not feel anything for another when stretching it out will be far more painful in the end. Fret not, chere, a real love will come along and sweep you off of your feet, and it will only be your fault if you let it go...

[Krishna]

This is like an intimate love-letter, and we are getting the opportunity to actually read its contents, very sweet and honest.

[An owl on the moon]

Simply magnificent, so emotionally driven and passionate, dealing so deeply with the feelings and complexities of love and infatuation. Few poems anywhere compare with your ability to write and let us see the transparent thoughts of turmoil that twist around inside our heads when we are trying to get a handle on love and loss.

[Jane Doe]

Beautifully written! I can relate to this piece. Your hurt and longing radiate from your words. So well written!

[Flow]

the net has opened communications over many miles where we can express ourselfves openly. You capture so well those times when our expressions of self mean more to those who listen or read our words. I can feel the vulnerability in this piece and it makes it feel personal. Excellent poem :)

[Amor-de-angel]

We are always ready to blame ourselves,but I often think we wouldn't blame ourselves if we hadn't been given a spark to think of love in the first place.
You expressed this so perfectly and well.
Wonderful write.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Now this is a plea of heartfelt proportions... trying to decide if who's fault it was for the relationship ending, truth is it takes two... but jealousy is a hard thing to overcome and no matter how hard we try when we love someone it's natural... your poem was a perfect display of the mixed up emotions in the wake of love's demise.

[Imperfection]

Honest.

Sometimes writing it down and going over it unties a few knots, clarifies somethings in the mind. May not give us what we want but an honest conversation with oneself does help in going through the pain.

I find that you've woven a string of Jorio's into this beautiful poem. Loved it.
I'm fond of those... you know that.

[Dawn Jones]

I know... my fault too... how perfectly we mirror one another. Your love for him; my love for her... I love this because it happens to the sweetest of us.