I'm Falling

I am falling and there is no one around to catch me.

I’m almost to the ground, and no one knows.

How hard will I hit the floor?  I don’t know.

But more importantly will I survive?

After I come crashing down how mangled will I be?

How many broken pieces will I be in?

Numb – that is how I feel right now

The dictionary says it is lacking in emotion or feeling.

Yeah that seems right … emotionally unresponsive.

That is now I feel right now, as I am falling.

I am not completely here; I’m almost to the ground.

It’s like a dream or a daze of someone else, another life.

The ground no longer looks millions of miles away.

I am looking and looking there is no one there to catch me.

Why isn’t anyone there? Doesn’t anyone care?

I feel so alone right now.  Forgotten, deserted.

I feel like crying but I have no tears.

I feel like yelling but I have no voice.

I am empty, completely drained inside and out.

Who will be there to catch me?

Who will help put myself back together?

Will I be able to put myself back together?

Will there be anyone there to help me?

I am so close, the end is so near?

How numb I feel knowing I am almost there.

How numb I feel knowing there is no one waiting.

No one who will catch me when I hit the ground.

No one to pick up my broken pieces.

How can things be so surreal?

Where is everybody? Anybody? … Nobody.

I am all alone as I fall.  All alone as I crash.

All alone to figure things out as I hit the ground.

The tears finally fall, my voice is back.

I scream but no one hears me.

I am yelling but no one answers my cries.

I am all alone here on the ground.

I didn’t think I would be all alone.

I guess it doesn’t matter now … it’s too late.

I doesn’t matter anymore … I can’t be repaired.

Broken in millions of little pieces, so many tiny pieces.

I don’t know if I will be able to put myself back together.

I can’t find all the tiny pieces, I am full of holes.

I need someone … just a voice telling me … te amo mija.

I close my eyes, this very moment and I can hear those words.

Those simple words that would have made me feel better.

I want someone to talk to … no, I need someone.

I need someone to reassure me that everything will be all right.

I am in so much pain right now, I am so broken.

I am crying and all I want is someone here with me.

Holding me, telling me that they love me.

Telling me that they will find all the pieces.

Telling me that they will put me back together again.

 

October 8, 2007

 

 

Reviews

[Michael X]

Serendipity, this is hearttouching in way your words reflect feelings that are pouring like water,
as well as the metaphorical descriping of falling, and how such imagery effects the reader, the
way you describe in contex by defining the concept, in its many reflections, yet sourcing from
one aspect and that being falling into a black hole of emotions, passionate, very well written,

[DarkAngelWriter]

Beautiful. It nearly brought tears to my eyes. I can so relate, but lucky me, things have improved. Beautiful work. Truely great. I am highly honored by your review.