Tell me what you See

What do you see in me--

Please tell me what you see now,
You used to see a girl that would take the world to crash and burn just to witness a frown
Now the same girl fighting to rise up from the ground 
Because MY world has come down

How will I survive?
Vision is suicide
Thoughts of do or die
Hell, am I really alive?
Was I really ever something more?
Can I trust the look in your eye?
Don't be so surprised of my emotions spilling from inside 

You know me, you loved me
You grew with me, placed above me
A million damn questions and most important "are you thinking of me?"

Each breath is toxic 
Without you, I'm insane, I've lost my logic

Hold back the same tears that comfort me
But it's unbearable and my control slips under me

Please don't hate me, I know your hurting more
I know your intentions aren't to hurt me and your heart is sore
Friends at the beginning and fast we grew to much more
Now fading fast, tell me is this worth fighting for?

Please dear god, what do you see now?

A desperate soul, I'm just a f*****g girl!
Is this bump in the road a small step to a bigger plan
I swear if it's ending I'll beg for one chance
I flip a coin in the air and fear which side it lands
I wish I could break the hour glass of life and swim within its sands 

Because this is where I'd rather be; reminiscing 
Please point me out to the problem I have to ask for forgiveness 

My life is really ripping in half
From the bitter times and what times have made me laugh

Just a born sinner sinning 
Going through life, but am I really living?

I'm not perfect
But I can make it worth it
Cause I surely deserve it

I'm just a fool
For you
Writing this cause I have nothing to lose
Together we were one
Now sadly we've become two

Please tell me what you see--

Author's Note

What do you see in me--

Reviews

[Kamari's]

Just a ducking girl no to have a voice like this you are a woman

[TL Boehm]

I'm just a "f*cking" girl. There is palpable loss and desperation in this piece. When we look at ourselves through the filter of someone else - are we a bump in the road, are we permanent? It truly tears the heart out. Well penned.

[Hilario Alves]

I can relate to this so much, i wish at the time i could convey my emotions the same way you have. Beautiful and thank you for writing this

[micky]

Awesome piece express itself very well and the message is well conveyed.Love it

[R Smith]

I see a great poet writing a great poem, certainly you bare your soul for the one you love and wach word hits hard, its sad and soulful but brings to life such beauty too, well done Niyia :)

[Charlie Ragsdale]

This is amazing, dark poetry, brilliant, wonderful, and best poetry I ever read

[George Peck]

I see an excellent, emotional poet. great poem thanks for sharing

[Not Your Typical New Yo..]

I really, really enjoyed this poem. I love the concept and the imagery. It's a heart broken poem, but you're written it in a way that actually be dark poetry, with surreal lines. It's brilliant done.