WHY!?

This is a poetry I am writing to my uncle that raped, molested and showed me inappropriate acts while I was a child.

I don't know why I feel so numb as if I do not exist

You touched me, taught me inappropriate acts while I was six

WHY!?

Don't you know you killed my soul? I am now twenty two   and don't know what is wrong with me 

Don't you know you messed up my life? I do not know how to be in a relationship with anyone 

Don't you know I feel like nothing because of you

When I cry I see you and your dirty acts, When I cry I hate me

WHY!?

Can I please have the childhood I never had

I hate that you conditioned me 

WHY!?

Now I find love through sex 

Because of you I don't know and never have fallen in love with a significant other 

Because of you all I want is to be alone with any commitments with anyone because I don't know what that is

Because of you I don't let anyone in

Because of you I feel like all am good for is sex 

Because of you I don't really know me 

Did you not know I was only six? 

Reviews

[matrixmark]

WOW. This was an alimighty and powerful piece. This is incredibly brave to put such a pesonal thing out there.
Really, really hard hitting I have to say.

Mark