10-10

On October 10th 2014 My ex-boyfriend Committed suicide, This is for him.

      My skies are clouded with guilt

      Sharp Pains of sorrow attack my heart 

      His image is glued to my eye lids

      Every time I blink- I see him smiling-

      He seemed to happy before he left; At least it seemed so.

      Maybe that's why I'm so guilty and regretful

      I know what its like to cover it up, I understood his pain

     and yet I didn't acknowledge it

      Without you Everything terrifies me

       From loud noises to my own thoughts

       The anxiety only gets worse

        Times like these I understand why you left