Nothing more

I hope you understand

NOTHING MORE
{IM HAPPY THAT IT STARTED BUT I KNOW I'LL BE THE OPPOSITE ONCE YOU'VE DEPARTED;
I know how this ends, we start off as friends, then we'll regret everything we said or did, and once AGAIN T'LL BE A REJECT. I used to think that we would be perfect, but I guess we got caught bending the rules and you once I get hurt, I'll be faced with nothing but the truth to talk to and accept.
This was probably the reason WHY YOU JUST COULDN'T STAY PRESENT, now I live alone in my present. I hated the gift I was given you know, to wake up after it all, especially after you started the conversation with "I'm sorry" and an hour later dropping the call.
Now clouds follow me everywhere, while the rain continues to fall. You still call me your friend after making me fall with the intent of NOTHING MORE. Now I'm closed off, locking every door, looking paranoid, after getting bullied and sued for being kind and loving my hearts become so annoyed.
Looking stupid, I continue to blame cupid, because if it wasn't for that idiot my heart wouldn't be dense and humid. Am I the only one going through this? YOU SEEM SO HAPPY, AND JOYOUS, I thought you'd spend your time missing me but instead you seem to enjoy this.
No motivation, you could've at least given me closure, with a conversation but I guess validation from your friends was more important than giving my cries for help composure. I gave you the real ME, the "doesn't have to lie" me, the "EXCITED ME", the "confident me", but you still thought keeping my eyes closed while surprising me with lies was a need.
I blame myself for expecting something that wouldn't be cliche, but tell me who I needed to be, what I need to say, how much I needed to pay, to keep you in my day to day, since you've got all the answers to the test of time. I will say your meticulous planning was sublime, the way you had me thinking you were mine, when really, I was just standing in line.
So, stop asking if I'm fine, when you know what you did. You knew my heart had eyes for only you but you still did it, you knew about my mental fights but still didn't value it, then you go ahead and show me why my decision to fall in love with was stupid.
{A group of friends laughing, while the DOVES IN THE WIND by SZA ft KENDRICK LAMAR subtly plays in the background}
"WE SHOULD'VE STAYED FRIENDS"