Delusion and Euphoria

Obsession takes hold of a mans mind

The cold dead stare in her eyes, forever released into the heavens. It's unfortunate that it had to come to this..She never gave me the chance i so deserving needed. I gave all and she absorbed all like a blood starved vampire. ironic it all is now,  That she would be the one at my feet broken. 

I knelt down before this once beautiful, but cold witch of a soul and held her now rigor mortis head up one last time, staring into her hellish but empty eyes. she was a demon that shattered what was left of my sanity, the one that finally released the manic rage within. If only she knew the things i did to try and help her through all of her sadness. Alas it was all forgotten at the drop of a hat, she was so easily distracted by false love. leave it to me to end her pain and mine in one foul swoop to the skull.

"I would have loved you forever" i wept as i pressed her dry cold lips against mine and let the tears flow down my face and onto hers. "why couldn't you just see that i was the one?" as i pulled away staring at her lifeless pale face. "Why couldn't you see that i would have done anything for you? It's not too late though..we can still be together forever. you and me! Without the distraction of others, like how it should have been...all these years."

I picked her up and slowly lowered her into the grave filled with her favorite flowers. The aroma was so serene. Perfect...just like her. I pulled out the bottle of pain killers i brought with me out of pocket, popped off the cap, tipped it back and gulped down every last pill. crying like the lonely fool i was. i laid down next to her and held her. Slowly feeling the pills take effect. I began to slowly slip into a dream like state where in a moment of euphoria i watched the woman i so obsessively loved but hated for so many years suddenly blink her eyes and roll over and look into my eyes and smile that perfect but gut wrenching grin and take hold of me. pull me close and say while staring into my eyes now full of life and tears "i'm sorry...I'm sorry it had to get to this point for us to be together, for me to finally realize that we are meant to be. All the other guys were just something to fill the hole in my heart where you belonged. If only i noticed your loyalty and love I wouldn't have been in so much pain and dragged you along for so many years. Forgive me Anon...let's start anew in the next world that you will surely meet me in." 

As my eyes slowly began to droop i felt my heart slow down, but i felt..happy..for the first time in my life. We Held each other in this deep deep grave of memories, hatred and sadness, and i slipped away from this earth, holding the body of my one true love. satisfied, and ready for whatever the afterlife held for me..and my perfect little princess.