My love like gum spat to the ground

I hear the voices in my head
As I curl up and cry in bed
Your words like a sharp blade
Cut me for the mistakes I made
You always say “I love you”
But you’re the first to cheat.. that’s nothing new
I carried on like a lost silent ghost
But it’s you i feared the most
I stay to myself while I cry alone
Just wishing you’d answer your phone
You’re out again no surprise
Then come home spreading your lies
I was a lost soul in need of love
Then I died, flew high like the purest dove

From a world where it was dark and cruel
I left it behind because majority ruled
Now I’m “happy” with a ghostly friend
I just wish it didn’t have to end
I’m still plagued by the demons inside
Oh how them and my anxiety collide
Bringing sadness to the brim
Showing me my death would be grim
Even though I have left, I still see all
I still see how my loved ones fall
The whispers of the voices I know
As i wonder if I could’ve took more
Took more pain to make me stronger
Maybe I could’ve stayed much longer
They knew my time had come
I’ll still watch over you chewing that gum
Stare as you spit it to the ground
Like our love you played it around