Evolution: Into the Lifestorm

Time for reflection once more.

Sunday, August 30, 2020

12:52am EST

Here we are, at the first landing and rest point between stairs that we call "weeks". This wasn't anything like I was expecting. It's easy to plan and prepare for a coming storm, but there's honestly no way of knowing just how hard it will hit until it does. The past month was just the beginning of a new chapter: An interlude before the next main tale of my life. The sun rose on Monday morning, and I was slammed fast and hard (and not in the fun way).

Two things started this week.

First, I was scheduled to work 40 hours for the first time at my part time job. 7:00pm to 3:30am Monday through Friday. Each and every night ended in an exhausting crash on my bed. Some nights I was too tired to shower. For two of the five days I could not even sleep for long.

Second, and the really big event of the two, the fall semester began. Four classes, all online and very demanding of my time. Coupled together with my job demanding more hours from me, there is little time to do much else in my life.

My weekly goals had to be put on hold. Only now and tomorrow will I be able to rush everything down and complete everything that I originally wanted to. I walked headfirst into a massive storm. Needless to say, I have my work cut out for me, and nothing will be accomplished if I remain idle. Week to week, fighting faster and harder to finish what is expected of me. Such is life. But ultimately, this is what I needed to evolve. Now the question is, will it happen or not? This storm will last for 3 months and that's how long I have to evolve into my new self. Normally, the induced stress from school and work alone don't make the storm what it is. They were simply the last two ingredients that had to be added to my life for it to form.

Social exploration, jumping back into the dating pool, rediscovering my old passion for writing and poetry, connecting with people from a bygone past, focusing on improving myself through counseling and self help lectures, discovering new opportunities, and now introducing the workload from school, and a little extra pressure from work. Blend together, and you have a lifestorm.

How would I define a lifestorm? When life becomes so chaotic, stressful, and overloaded that something in the current status quo has to change if you wish to survive. It is an opportunity to evolve, which is what this chapter of my life is all about.

Author's Note

Probably the least poetic of every story and poem I've written so far. My hectic life is becoming the norm as the days go by (hence the tone of my more recent poems), so I figured it was time to announce and address it.

Reviews

[Lorry]

They are the years that define you and the path you will take, leave you feeling like you are chasing your tail and exhaustion will turn your thought process to syrup. You will have life defining decisions to make, on top of the humdrum, every day variety and won't have enough time to change your mind, so best pay attention and get it right first time, so that you can finally breathe a sigh of relief and a weekend off before starting a 40 year career that will defy logic by dragging and flying simultaneously, where in your dotage, you will have just enough time to think "what the hell just happened!?" before getting fitted for your wooden overcoat...
Easy peasy, if you say it all quick enough 😀
You have my sympathies and best of luck.
Now wake up anfd get to it 😀

[Mr. Malarkey]

We'll see what happens, but hopefully everything turns out well! :) Thanks as always Lorry!

(I wish I had the energy to say more, but I'm exhausted haha. Life isn't letting up)

[Lorry]

Understandable 😀😀