Do You Remember

A memory of the perfect love; reignited a sense for longing. Maybe I'm crazy.

In a past life
There was you and me
We fondly met here
Around 7 years ago

Nights spent talking
Nights spent dreaming
Nights spent longing
Longing to be together

I loved you so much
Part of me still does
Oh red haired angel
Are you still there?

So much time had passed
I was so different then
Staying silent out of respect
For I thought we couldn't be

I do not know where you are now
But I hope you are living happy
Your soul was so beautiful
And I was blessed to be yours

I remember it all
The day we met in person
Everything felt so natural
I wish I could relive it once more

Walking through the mall
Our fingers intertwined
With no clear destination
Just being together was enough

Watching a movie together
Giggling and laughing throughout
Pulling you in closer
Looking into your eyes

The night came to a close
We hugged in the moonlight
Found a hotel to spend the night
And continued working our magic

We made love together
Showered, and continued
Even after we ran out of condoms
Being with you felt so whole...

Talking about our future
Eight kids all raised with love
Hoping for twins too
Gosh they would be such a handful

Then morning came
Our time was coming to an end
I never wanted it to end
But life had to be cruel

We hugged and kissed outside
Filled our cars with gas
You were pleading to stay
I wanted to be there forever

Then... came my greatest mistake
The mistake that cost us our future

I promised I would come back
But ever since I got home
I was too nervous to call you
And I do not know why

Maybe I was scared
Scared that I wasn't good enough
I don't know why I waited
But it was my worst decision

We found each other again
Many months later
I felt so happy again
But then the news came...

You admitted to me
You were pregnant
With another man's child
I could feel my heart split

I was happy for you of course
But deep down...
I felt like I really lost you
Because I never kept in touch

Was that the reason why I left?
Two years ago, overcome with guilt?
I hardly remember anymore
It feels so long ago

So why am I here now?
Two years back from the dead
Maybe I'm looking for something
Looking for the people I once left behind

Making changes to my life
Just in time for my 27th birthday
Because I've hardly changed
And I can feel the pressures of age

Deep down in my heart
I hope you'll find the message I left
And find your way back here
So you will know who I really am

I don't know if I'm blind
Blindly chasing something
Something that cannot exist
A love between us again

I guess only time will tell
Maybe you'll come back, maybe not
You've probably moved on with your life
Maybe it's best if I moved on with mine

Until I know where I'm going
I'll try to hang around here
Because I wouldn't want to leave you
Not a second time

Here I am, a fool from the past
Do you remember me?

Author's Note

What the hell was I thinking. I should move on and forget