Lost & Damned

The past still haunts me

Newfound demons, came to assault me from my past

I never seem able to escape these moments

No matter how far I run, the peace I find within never lasts

They grab me, clutching at my heart, excruciating torment

The past is the past, but I can feel it dogging my footsteps

Shadows lurking in corners, ghosts of my past, death in the doorway

The voices in my head are driving me to insanity, whispering ' who's next? '

My eyes flash red, the monster is reborn so prepare for doomsday

All the pain unleashed, I am breaking limbs and snapping necks

You did this to me, You created me, for your mistakes... who'll pay?

I NEVER asked for this life of mine that I now lead

Countless nights spent broken, my heart you had stolen

My faith lost, dignity shattered, so I turn to God and plead

But the Devil answered my cries, my cries for help

He said I had to do one thing, in order for me to be whole again

I wanted a way out, there is no describing the pain I felt

all that I have felt, and more, pent up to be unleashed

for unremarkable damage to be dealt

Lets face it, I didn't need the Devils help for pain to be released

I did it for myself, I hurt everyone in my fury and I felt pleased

I saw an opportunity in this hellhole of a life

There was a chance, a moment to be seized

I took it, but still I was haunted, I despize myself

Yet I love myself, I am forever condemned

Destined to be infinitely damned.