Red Ink

A love letter.. with a twist.

I'm writing this letter, with ink so red

When i am done, i'll end up going to my bed

and pass away, to an eternal sleep

a sleep that is forever deep

6 feet underneath you, where i belong

I'll be forever under

and when you see the thunder

In the sky, look for my eyes

I'll be watching out for you

Cause honey you never once had a clue

Of what you meant to someone like me

You were my angel

You stopped my fall

but you never heard my call

Are you a demon sent to torment?

God i pray each night

to see the light

for the strength to fight

with my absolute might

I am going to take flight

Not because i want to run

but because i want to see who will follow

My life has never felt so hollow

so empty

so devoid of everything

I don't know anything

yet i feel so wise

My life has been corrupted by lies

and i've been deflated

Never felt so defeated

You thought you shown weakness

but i only saw strength

I was there to witness, and it was immense

Emotions so intense

So strong with flow

but i hope they never grow

For i don't know how long i'll be here

To see you grow, and be able to hear

Your sweet strong voice

but this isn't my choice

I have none left

I shown too much weakness

and maybe that's why we can never be?

I opened my heart and let it all show

it was my one weakness, and i let you see

I wanted you to be there and feel

that every word was written with care

and to deny me is fair

for i have no argument

nor complaint

I feel so faint

I'm running out of my red ink

no time left to think

cause my vision is dimming...

my head is spinning

i forgot to mention, my red ink?

Is my pain, my emotions and blood there

Laid bare...