Your Piece pt 1

An old love asked me to write her a piece after a strange in contuner that brought us back together after 10 years.

I'll be the first to admit,

I have character defects.

In a magnificent way

Life is a homogenization of

Cause and effect.

Your email caused an effect

That I just had to get off my chest.

So do excuse me if I'm direct.

You thought it would be quite clever

To express myself through verse.

Keeping it 100 is a gift and a curse.

Take these words as a gift.

An example of my righteous effort

To know you better before my unasked questions

Turned assumptions only get worse.

 

Let me begin, dive in into areas

Of my physique that I had placed

Under guard and threw away the key.

What prompted you to find it,

Sneak past the guards and unlock the door?

Perplexed to why you would want to explore more

Of a catastrophic ground zero,

Where damaged, trampled, charred, and disregarded

Emotions and memories litter the floor?

Still you proceed when you know I trust no women,

And believe that they're all w****s.

Is it possible that you know my soul longed for more,

And that the ONE would be able to find the key and

handle the contents behind said door?

How from afar did you have my stomach in knots

ready to spew in my moms car?

 

My world was knocked ajar when I was informed

you were the mother of a six month old son.

I was stunned, immediately I wanted to run,

But you had unlocked the door

So you had to be the potential one.

I stayed, silently to myself I prayed

For God to give me the strength to wade through

That river of false emotions and come out unscathed.

So I give praise cause from that obstacle a new path was paved.

 

How could I express my over al lsadness about your loss

When you explained that your lover, future husband,

And father of your son had passed?

Even more complex is how could I explain my relief

Without being disrespectful or causing you grief?

Choosing to with hold my speech I lost sleep.

Images consume my mental theater

Of you losing a love so deep.

At night when you're alone do you still weep

Mourn until the early Morin'?

Pick up your son and see his face?

Are you still in love cause I refuse to take someone elses place?

Was his death violent or did he die naturally in silince?

I'm not sure I can even handle knowing his name.

Is that a shame?

I just want to be compeltly honest.

I don't know if I could ever put you having a child behind me.

Understand that my heart told be me

The one would be similar to me with no kids.

So I honestly believe that if I give into

These wonderful feelings I would be settling

For you and his.....

Author's Note

I think to fully graps where these emotions stem from refernce my piece Future Ruler, I think it would clarity.

Reviews

[Celeste21]

I've noticed a lot of women do not want to date a woman w/ child. And when I hear this it makes me sad that so many very good women are not even given a chance based off of previous relationships. Not having children allows you to keep your past in complete secrecy. Where as people that do have children and are playing an active role in their lives are questioned/ punished for doing so. My sister's husband married my sister despite the fact that she had 2 children. He is honestly a beautiful man, and I'm so happy that she has him in her life. Idk this woman might be your soul mate even if she got lost for a little while a long the way. On the wedding day he gave both her little girls beautiful necklaces and promised to love them as if they were his own daughters and he has. They call him Dad and to those girls he is all the Daddy they need.