A Directionless Rant

I usually write short stories, but occasionally by mind gets to clogged and I gotta do less structural things, while also keeping tempo. It's kinda sing-songy.

My mind is always wondering, always asking all these questions, indecisiveness, doubtfulness and deep depression
How can you choose to latch onto an idea and be content, when nowadays we’re all so far from heaven-sent?
The way I think it frightens me, it keeps me at the shore. Ships go by day and night and I never get on board
I’m not content with one, the numbers too unreliable. You’re better off getting good life lessons from a child
Pure of heart, but not so smart, so I guess that’s out too. But the people left are crazy what the f**k I’m supposed to do?
The s**t you’re seeing nowadays it chills you to the core, to see the rich and stupid reap their deep rewards
Teaching all the kids that’s it’s better to be fake, go ahead and close your eyes and take the apple from the snake
They promise it won’t bite you, or so you should believe. At least until it’s drained you then you’re left with their disease
But people are so numb they’re been trained without a brain, to walk around the world and act as if they know their name
But deep inside they’ve lost themselves and buried it beneath the idea of who they thought they are and who that they should be
But I don’t respond, I am not gone, I choose to never follow. I’d rather die myself then leave my life carved out and hollow
So far nothing satisfies this brain that I was given, but how do I know it was a gift, rather than a prison?
F**k the world, it’s gonna burn, but not in holy fire. It’s gonna reap the benefits of greedy men’s desires
The men behind the curtain, pulling all the strings, killing all the innocent while they smile and they sing
“Praise the lord, I’m righteous, I do it in your name” Never will they realize they’re the very thing they hate
But they’re safe for now, why give us a second look, we’re just the pawns inside this game designed inside a book
A book designed for love, while only preaching hate. To fragment the world, save your own and let God decide your fate
But little did they know there’s a twisted f*****g ending, you either see nothing or on your own noose f*****g hanging
But I really got to hand it to you, you fooled the f*****g world. Teaching us to behave like little boys and little girls
Always doing what we’re told never asking what or why, but eventually there’s meant to be curiosity in our eyes
I’ve made the right decision, I’ve decided on the fence, I’d rather die right now then parade behind the heaven sent
Cause all they leave behind them is a trail of burning fire, engulfing all the innocents as if they were expired
But the other side ain’t innocent of crimes, they spend their time chanting “get it our before you die”
But filling your life with distractions isn’t ever gonna fill you, it’s merely there to keep you occupied until they kill you
I know it seems pessimistic, but I’m as optimistic as they come. I hope the world will turn around and learn to have respect for everyone
But humans are evil, it’s simple, no argument. That’s why we always see people living life like they’ve no lives to live
They do it for the moment, but that moment was a flaw. Maybe they will realize they’ve been stupid after all
But I don’t see it happening with all this f*****g television cramming in their minds telling them what is the right decision
Buy this, I promise you it’ll make your life improve. And if you’ve found I lied what the f**k you gonna do?
I’ve already got version two and it’s a whole lot better, go find your friends and relatives and rack up on some debt sir
The government does, so why shouldn’t we? They are the prime example of what you should aspire to be
They’ve got the power, all the money and they’re famous. You see their f*****g face f*****g painted on the pavement
They know what’s best for you I promise you my son, in other places I swear it’s f*****g hell for everyone
They don’t have what you have so sit down and shut the f**k up, obey my god damn rules and I’ll keep filling up your cup
Be thankful for this nation, we almost let you speak your mind, but go too far, you’ll get a charge and we’ll lock up inside
Make you out to be crazy, even though this nation made me, I cannot speak my mind because my thoughts are seen as hazy
I must be f*****g crazy, lock me and feed me pills, I better swallow quietly to deter from getting killed
Say a word against the norm and you need help and f*****g counseling, go to war and kill millions with all the freedom that we’re spouting
Its bullshit all these hypocrites thinking they know what is best, I bet their opinions change with a bullet in THEIR chest
A dying man is honest; repenting for all his crimes and sins, because he knows there’s no army at his back at the end
To hide behind, to demoralize, to traumatize, to make pawns of, and for what huh? So you can live comfortably while thousands die daily cause all they know is hungry
This world is fucked up and everybody in it, we’re all just playing games thinking eventually we’ll win it
But it never stops, the waves are endlessly attacking at your heart, taking any chance to take you down and tear you all apart
Tear your voice from you, you know that’s what they aim to do, if anybody reads this you know I’ve started the game too
But I can’t help, I’ve never kept my mouth shut even when my mouth was fucked I was still trying to speak up
I can’t contain it, my thoughts they are a train wreck, constantly contradicting all the things they I have made up
But how can I sit idle on a thought? When everything around me is getting outlined down in chalk
I see an end, it’s imminent for us. But that doesn’t mean we have to live our short lives all hushed up
Behaving like a baby, keeping our mouths shut but maybe I’m the one’s f*****g crazy, but that doesn’t mean you should hate me?
No embrace me, take me in and make me, mold my words for you, hell even say you wrote them too
Why not, I’m not that only one. It’s hard to believe that everyone but me is out there having fun
I can’t see it, I also choose not to believe it cause in your eyes I see you think it, just as long as you conceive it
Conceal it, but only for a moment, then let it all out in one big beautiful matrimony
A bonding, of human and brain, it’s about f*****g time you two rode the same train
But don’t get hasty, cause it’s only for a second, then it has you second guessing, am I hell or am I heaven?
Or am I neither? Why can’t I just be settled, take my foot off of this pedal, slow it down and try and mellow
But that’s not me, it’s not how I’m to be. I’m supposed to weeble-wobble til my eyes can’t f*****g see
But I’ve accepted it instead just regretting it, i’m letting this devour it and pour it out and take a sip
I know I’m odd, indecisive til the end. If there is a true creator then I’m his f*****g b*****d kid
We’re not related, in neither body nor in mind, the product of a species who’s only purpose is to die
But please forgive, for I know not what I do. I think myself an innocent for I learned all this from you

Author's Note

I believe in everything, I believe in nothing.