Mixed Blessings

It’s sad how I found out

 That a good heart can go bad

It’s true that I’ve grown

 From the heartaches I’ve had

 

It’s good that I see

 That what’s happened to me

As a blessing from God

To a certain degree

 

Without God I would be

 Strung out for sure

Thinking that somehow

The drugs were the cure

 

Next to my bed

Would be a revolving door

With nameless faces

Who would use me some more

 

But that’s not the direction

 That I choose to go

Instead I’ve chosen God

And with him I will grow

 

I notice the lessons

That he’s teaching to me

As building blocks for my spirit

That will set my soul free

 

No longer a slave to addiction

And shame

No longer a token

 For othere’s to blame

 

So…..thank you God

For forgiving my sins

This is now where

My new life begins

 

Author's Note

This did'nt really turn out the way I had first intended it to go but I thought that I would share it anyways

Reviews

[Dani California]

Again.... awesome!!!

ML... you are becoming quite the insprirational writer! In the short time I've known you here, you've progressed from gloom... to bloom. So wonderful... !

Thank you my friend! I truly love your work!
The darker writes too ... expression is oxygen.

:) Peace, Dani

[Shadows of Sight]

It may not be what you inteneded, but it the path it took is a powerfully wonderous one as it is.
Choosing faith over practicle quick fixes can be difficult at times. To show that you have choosen the harder road to walk, show true character and a sense of honest caring about your own, and those around you, welfare.

Wonderful Piece!

One note - 7th stanza last line "Other's" ??

[Carole]

God does indeed use all of our heartache and pain to bring us to Him. Though I don't believe He is the author of it necessarily since many times we suffer consequences from our own choices, hard times definitely cause us to look up and reach out for help. Most of us have had our drugs of choice and they come in many forms, but every earthly comfort falls short-at least, for me.

I notice the lessons

That he's teaching to me

As building blocks for my spirit

That will set my soul free



No longer a slave to addiction

And shame

No longer a token

For othere's to blame



So�..thank you God

For forgiving my sins

This is now where

My new life begins

Bam! You have said so much here and each word was an encouragement. Thank you!

[justjenn_2u]

You are on a beautiful journey and the journey shines all over this page.

To go back to the drugs would only be twice as painful and harder to get back out of, as you know I am going through this now.

Your poem speaks to me as a source of strength. To be able to read the words of another recovering addict offers me hope. The best advice in this poem is that of reaching to God. For me to hand my life over to God, I am assured a bright future. No longer will I be lurking in the shadows of filth and degradation.

Once again, thanks for sharing! You give me so much inner comfort through your words. I am grateful!

[Polly Lewis]

Such a beautiful expression. I love the echo of resilience built into your words and the way you have chosen to overcome your difficulties reflects your courage and determination. God is always with us, but it is up to us to listen.

A thoroughly uplifting piece.

[Cliff Rhodes]

I like this one and it really relates to all of us and the saving grace of Christ, forgiving sins and refreshing the spirit.

[Belinda Rice]

wow again another pleaseing poem you really are rocking out these poems like there nothing but the great.man I like to know how you do it so passionately like this...full of grace and to feel the feedom of living great job....Belinda

[Beka]

I enjoy how much God has affected your life.
It is so important that people have faith.
It is what saves life.
Even if there is nothing you will always believe that there is something.
And thats what keeps us going.
I enjoyed reading this.
Though I'm not sure what my relationship with him is right now.
I know that he's there for me when I need him.
Even if some days I don't want him there.

[.::Cup^E^Cake*RaWr!*::.]

Wow I love his piece!
I'm a cristion & I can totaly relate to this!
It' so beautiful the way u have thanked God for what he has done for you!
Kudos!!
=]

[RHEA CROSLEY]

I like it. It has good flow and a message of hope,a new start. Good write, thanks.