One More Time Around the Block

A poem about a girl that is very depressed and becomes suicidal. She soon finds herself making one of the most important decisions in her life. Note:This is NOT about me or anyone I know.

One more time around the block
Before she glances at the clock.
Running farther, running fast
Hating how she’s always last.

Her best friend tells her everyday
That everything will be okay.
But nothing will get any better
if she sits around and waits forever.

She drowns in self-loathing, though she’s pretty and smart
When will it end and why did it start?
Her hearts all locked up and covered in chains
While she keeps it inside and chokes on her pain.

She saw doctors and councilors, she went to them crying
But all of them said that she would be fine.
Everything they told her were myths and lies,
Can’t you see she’s hurting just look in her eyes!

She’s losing herself and losing her mind
She needs to relax and simply unwind.
She never smiles and rarely speaks
If this continues, she’ll be dead in weeks.

Stumbling and falling into deeper holes,
Pulling away from her family and friends
Losing her dreams, never reaching her goals
Each day she falls,her mind starts to bend.

Feeling alone
and feeling depressed
she decides to come home
and get it off her chest

She asks her parents if they miss their little girl,
Who used to laugh, and dance, and twirl?
But they never notice and they don’t seem to care.
They’re never home and they’re never there.

Can’t they spare just two seconds and see,
What has become of their poor honeybee?
Won’t they listen, see what she’s become,
Falling apart and coming undone?

With no one around,
And no one to listen.
She makes not a sound
As her eyes once more glisten.

Desperate for hope,
not having a voice,
not wanting to mope
she makes a fatal choice.

But before she follows through,
she gives one last try
she tries to tell family, her teachers, and you
that she's feeling the hurt that she tried to deny

But none of you hear
and she starts to let go
of all things she held dear
and her pain she won't show.

So she runs back home
looking for a way out
where she's all alone
and she screams, cries,and shouts.

Bombarding her mind with her troubles and fears
bottling them up and shedding more tears.
Maybe she would be better off dead
rather than listening to lies in her head.

She stands on the chair
on her neck is a rope
with her feet cold and bare
but...how will they cope?

With a last breath,she shakes her head
and kicks the chair away
second later she will be dead
now it's too late and she wants to stay.

Tugging on the rope and gasping for air
all she was looking for was a way out
but crushing her lungs is too much to bear
but she can barely breathe, let alone shout.

She hears the door open and hears her dad's voice
and everything is going fuzzy and black
now she knows this was a wrong, stupid choice
she misses them already and wants to take her life back.

In rushes her father
and lets her down
And cries as he holds her
But her body's shutting down

Her mother's voice on the phone
she sees flashing lights and sirens wailing
she's being taken from home
her body is cold and paling

Her mind is going blurry
and she wants to shout
She needs them to hurry
but she's already blacked out

Weeks later she wakes up in a hospital bed
overjoyed and relieved that she's not really dead
Her parents are with her and happy they're there
now she's come to realize that they really do care

After she comes back home and fixes her life
She's happy once more and free of her strife
Where  there once was a heart that was empty and broken
Now there is love and a heart that's wide open

One last time around the block
before she glances at the clock
running farther running fast
leaving behind the painful past

Once she was broken
but now the door's open
in the sky is a lovely rising sun
there's no more pain, her real life has begun