Cheating Mind (2004)

as tears steam down my cheeks

i  cannot say why

my thoughts swirl in mass confusion

i cannot think why

i think of you and i cry

i think of you and i smile

i think of you and i want to die

i think of you and i want to last awhile

my brain is all a mess

i cant keep up

if only i knew what to confess

i cant speak up

i dream of him and i lie

i dream of him and i hope

i dream of him and i want to die

i dream of him and i look for the rope

my heart is divided

broken pieces here

my brain is double-sided

broken thesis here

i evaluate myself and see whats wrong

i evaluate myself and don't like the result

i evaluate myself and take way too long

i evaluate myself and know its all my fault