Questioning love (2004)

confusion still lasts
is the grass always greener on the other side
when do i stop looking?
do i "settle" for long term
or do i search for the ideal
do i trust my love that says hes the one
is love even real
i am over analyzing
i am lost in my own life
that i have not yet created
and I'm confused in relationships again
will i ever be happy with the way i am
and with who i have
or will i always long for the one i had
and search for that man that is logical and lovable?
and how will i know that is true love?
how is it not forced because he appears so ideal?
will my thoughts ever quit swirling?
will i ever stop being so contradictory?

i need someone there always that will never leave
yet i want my independence and for him to have his own too
i get annoyed with those that want to see me daily
yet i need to be wanted
i attract the insane and the codependent
i portray the mother figure
i forget to care for myself
and then when i do care for me it hurts them b/c i isolate myself
i make no sense whatsoever
i thought i knew what i wanted in a relationship
but every time i get that its not enough