Curse

Why do I still think of you,
Why do I still want you,
Why do I still crave to touch you, just once,
Why do you still love me?

It's been almost five years now,
I keep promising to see you,
You swear you still want me,
Still love me,
I swear I love the man I sleep next to,
I mean it,
But what I wouldn't give to have you,
Just one day,

I shake when your name lights up my phone,
I cry when we talk,
I feel guilty when I look at your pictures,
We never had the chance we always wanted,
The world would end if we did,

So I'm stuck with wondering,
What your hand would feel like,
What your kiss would taste like,
What our love would feel like,
What dreams would be like sleeping tightly embraced...