I miss youA Story by Moonwind Belmontagain I hit the concrete floor as the realization that the I can't be with the one I love anymore5:37 are…I look up to rainy morning sky as I puff out the
remainder of my cigarette. A line from the song from Dreamtheater says it’s raining deep in heaven…I paraphrase
it; it’s raining deep in my heart. And I realize, as I stand here on the balcony
on the 3rd floor of the building where I work…I can’t be with you
anymore… I knew it was coming and now it’s here, the day that I can’t
hold your hand anymore, do those simple things that made us laugh our hearts
out. Those times we didn’t know where to go but still end the day with a big
smile on our face and you beside me. The times you’d tease and force me to eat that
green vegetable that tastes terrible and I hate so much. And in the times of
adversity that I’d stand by you. I promised I will and still will…but things
just kind of change. I have to rely on the charity of people around me to stop
thinking about this, but it all sinks in when I lie down alone in my room and
stare at the ceiling. Loud metallic music doesn’t even help anymore. I don’t want
to eat, and walking around aimlessly seems to have lost its therapeutic magic. I love you…I really do, you are the reason why the smile has
returned to my face, why I look forward to each and every day. Can there be
really such a reason for everything? You are my reason but why do I have to
suffer again and again??? Borrowed time, it all that I had, and all I have are
bittersweet memories that will continue to haunt me again, adding to scars this
heart and soul that have been bruised and battered through the years, and hear
it is again. It’s like hell in a different way because hell is a cold place
where all feelings die. In the midst of a happy crowd, again I stand the empty soul
with a fake smile. The music in me has died, the smile will be next and it will
be so hard to keep strong when deep inside my world has crumbled apart. Countless times I picked up the pieces my
heart was broken into but may be this time, I’ll just let time blow away the
pieces because I’ve been my soul is already tired of doing so.
I LOVE YOU…SIMPLE AS THAT I’m going back to the balcony, another cigarette for me and
the hurt continues… © 2013 Moonwind Belmont |
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Added on August 11, 2013 Last Updated on August 11, 2013 AuthorMoonwind BelmontCebu, 7, PhilippinesAboutI'm a musician by heart and have been blessed with this talent since I was a kid. I am also a writer but it seems I have lost the touch when I entered this reality called the "WORKING WORLD". I used t.. more..Writing
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