Unravel, unknot, cut free

More then likely the last thing I’ll post on this account

I avoid you but you find me,
I find solace in other people and you reach out.
Almost as if you know when I’m starting to move foreword.

I used to say you were a part of me
But as it is famously wrote
“I am more then the sum of my parts”

I didn’t check on you
I didn’t ask
I fail to see why you sought me out.
Your actions have always betrayed you.
In some ways I did break the cycle.
I am not filled with the familiar warmth i once was, when I was in love with you.

Infact I’m almost filled with dread.
There is always the hope that you will be ready to talk, that I’ll get the closure I need to move on.
That I’ll say all I need to in order for you to see the damage you’ve done.
I’d write it here but I don’t think you read often these days.
So I’ll minimize all I have- as I always have.

I’m not mad that you broke my heart, nor am I upset in you choosing her.
I’m upset in that you betrayed my trust as your friend.
The same way you betray your brother for this woman.
He’s pulled away from you.
someone you were once so close with.

You’ve always done that best.
Pushed those away whom had only your good intentions in mind.
And I don’t read your writing now as I stopped seeking you in empty words and excuses you’d write but never blatantly say like a man.

I’m no navigator- a fact you will remember well, but in all things in this life I hope you find your way.
I hope you learn honesty.
I hope you learn to trust people with the truth, in all it’s horrible, awful, grotesque-beauty.
I hope you learn to be true to yourself as you age.
So that you may know happiness in its purest self.
Above all else, I hope you learn self love, confidence and independence.
There is no greater small pleasure then being alone right now and being comfortable with just that.
In short, I hope you learn to love yourself enough to give yourself all the things I thought you deserved- when I loved you.

Reviews

[emmajoygreen]

Seems you have felt, considered, gone back and forth, discovering the pros and cons and, then, finally said how and what you have felt so deeply, hurt so much. Grand writing, honest and more.. perhaps now is the time to move on. If you truly need to.

Smiled here: ' I used to say you were a part of me .. But as it is famously wrote .. “I am more then the sum of my parts”

[Kerra]

Relatable read here, and quite emotional. nicely written

[Tina]

I can relate to your poem, sometimes though you can't get the closure you want you have to find it in yourself.

[Jess]

This is a wonderfully honest piece of work and one I can very much relate to. This idea that you leave and try to push forward while others/other things try to pull you back. Even those who pushed you away first. Very very pure writing and well done. I really enjoyed this!