...and i don't really feel it anymore

Cold coffee

  and this muffled scream

     ..getting quieter

...and i don't even feel it anymore

i feel strange sitting still

everything i know tells me to go

to much to see 

to much to love

to many scars to wake me 

...and i don't even feel it anymore

i masturbate

 i contemplate

   and it grows sleepy

     inside me

i ate the whole block of cheese and 

  all the cough medicine

    all i use to be

  and i have gone numb

it like i don't really feel anymore  

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[ANTO]

quite a few typos but the sense of existing rather than living - not even comfortably numb as the saying goes, more uncomfortably comfortably numb.
I could relate to the cheese thing - especially after dark, trying to fill gaps that are unfillable by food and the masturbation that really is only a few seconds of escape than an actual act of self love or desire or fantasy.