Confused about him 2

the following writing of "confused abot him 1" same boy ;)

What shall I do ?

should I believe him or not ?

my heart says that I should wait 

and my mind says the complete opposite

even my friends are devided in two 

so what to do ? I have no clue 

I'm totally confused about him 

           My life looks like a game

           for me , sometimes i'm wining,

           but sometimes it's like swimming

           in an ocean of puzzles and mystery

           or in a maze with a million boundery

So i think :

           will i find my way out ?

           am i going to end this fight ?

           which one will win , my mind or my heart ?

so much questions without a reply 

and that has made me cry 

I'm confused about him i won't deny .

           At night , my pillow get filled with tears

           even though I know i'm the only one he sees 

           but i still have my deepest  fears.

I'm not ready for my second break of my heart 

and surly i'm not ready for us to be apart 

but no matter what , i won't let him play me

he can be my best friend or who ever he wants to be 

as long as he doesn't mess with me, cause he wan't like what he'll see.