Defeat

Defeat, the agony of defeat.

Every time I told you I loved you
I meant it
Every time I've held you
I felt it
The warmth of your embrace
You told me it would not work out
You meant it
Every time you told me you loved me
I guess you lied
When you told me I felt something
Something inside me died
I knew that love had been the source of my defeat
And I know that it has to be the last time

I will never let love bring me down again
I will never let anyone bring me down again
I don’t want to feel agony
I don’t want to know defeat
I will never let anyone play with me
The way you did

Now when I want to cry
I can’t
I feel pain like I’ve never felt it before
I feel defeat in a way I’ve never felt it before
I’ve done what I can to keep you close to me
I’ve done everything I can to make you feel loved by me
If it makes you happy
I’ll give you up
I’ll leave you
But I will still
Always be there for you
Yet I will not treat you as the love of my life
What you used to be
I’ll treat you the way you want me to treat you
I’ll treat you as a friend
Nothing more
Nothing less

Defeat, love has become what eventually defeated me
You will always have a place in my heart

Even though it hurts to say it
I still love you.

 

Author's Note

Read it and enjoy it, I know I'm not the only one going through something like this.