Web Journal Of Red Pill Coyote: November 17th, 2021

HEYYYY ALL MY ZOMBIE TURKEYS! DID YA MISS ME!? Probably not... But that's okay. I'm used to it... Lol. Last night, Rozonda revealed to me that her and I would never work out.. I was pretty defiant about it but it makes sense now... The reasons she gave onto why we can't be boyfriend and girlfriend.

1. She's 41 and I'm 26.

2. She lives in Mexico and I live in the United States

The age difference doesn't bother me. It is in fact that we live soooo far away from each other. Ya know, I can't see me flying down there or her flying down here. I talked about it with mom and dad today and they said it would be impossible with how everything is now a days... So yeah, I have to agree with Rozonda that a long distance relationship wouldn't work... So, I'm back to being trapped on the cove island with nothing but the silhouette spirits...

I both love and hate going to Texas Road House... I can't help but to find a lot of the 20 to 30 something year old waitresses there attractive...  Especially in those tight jeans and it puts me on a throne of guilt because Satan perverted the act of intercourse MANY MANY MANY years ago... So, I wanna sniff farts from those big ol' butts of theirs to be sent to a mystical realm filled with unicorns prancing on an emerald passage... And I feel like someone should shoot my penis off... NOT BECAUSE I WANNA RENAME MYSELF SALLY. But because anything sexual makes me feel ashamed. Women should not be seen as biological sex objects but as loving, thinking, living, creatures. Female flatulence is sooo scrumptious to me AND IT DRIVES ME CRAZY. But yeah... I could try to date one of those girls and be a seraphim servant to that specific girl BUT THEY ALL LIVE IN KENTUCKY AND I LIVE IN OHIO. I can't even drive. I dated a girl from Lawrence County for only 3 weeks because of this reason... That was in 2014...  BUT IT'S LIKE OOOOH!!! SOME SUCCUBUS FROM ANOTHER DIMENSION IS USING THE TEETH AROUND THE VAGINA. I wish I could be asexual. NOT AROMANTIC THOUGH! Now a days, I just think it's weird that girls will date these guys who are straight up ugly, stupid, boring and abusive and then there's me who hasn't been with a girl since 2015. It would make anybody like me feel insecure. Here I am, I'm TRYING to listen to these girls' problems, I'm complimenting them, I'm getting them presents and such. BEING THE SERAPHIM SERVANT AS BEST AS POSSIBLE. But they wanna date these guys who are atrocious inside and out. Guys who are these dork hillbilly hybrid neckbeards who just mumble when they talk, they're verbally and physically abusive to their girlfriend/wife and sexually abusive to their own child. And I honestly feel sorry for these girls. They deserve all the genuine love and affection that they can get. I've always felt this pro-scumbag sentimentality when it comes to Scioto County. And it's not just the dating world. A guy who's had a history of raping babies can get a nice job around here before I can. And it's all because I'm autistic and other issues I can't help. "YOU SUCCESSFULLY BUTT FUCKED AN INFANT!? I'M PROMOTING YOU TO HEAD MANAGER!". I mean, that's really repulsive but that's how it seems like from my point of view. I mean the guy who was a drug dealer and sexually molested me when I was 12 and 13 years old is now a therapist. And here I am, I can't even get a casual job. I just have to rely on my Joe Biden supporting sister when my parents die. From what I've been told my mom has been sliding down the pulse lane about what's going to happen to me when they die and my DOMESTIC sister doesn't seem to wanna have much to do with us and my mom has been worried about that. Well, all three of my siblings kind of avoid us for the most part... I'll just go ahead and tell you all what I've been professionally diagnosed with... Asperger's syndrome, ADHD, OCD, Sensory Processing Disorder, Schizotypal Personality Disorder, dysthymia, PTSD, depersonalization disorder, insomnia and pica. And because of all that, people feel like I can't handle the adult life like most people and it makes me feel so damn constricted and insecure...

Anyways, I kind of went off on a tangent... We went to the Ashland mall afterwards and as much as it's a stereotype that aspies enjoy repetitiveness, I am sick of that f*****g mall... I've been going to that mall like 6 times a month since 1996. I barely even go into any of the stores. I just pace around and wait until my mom is done. There were these women who were standing around, giving away free samples of lotion, I THINK. One of them was doing a little dance and I tried joining her and she just giggled and walked away from me. She was like "Oh no, I just like dancing by myself". Idk... She was just not particularly friendly with me. It was like a present time access denying of 1987 mall tour Tiffany through symbolism...  It was just certain things were shoving fireworks up my midget amphibians. Nobody likes being a literal social outcast who has no friends to actually hang out with and it adds salt to injury when SOMETIMES I SERIOUSLY DO feel like the only social outcast in this area.. I wanna go to the HUNTINGTON MALL.

And then I came home and shoved peanut butter up my nostrils and blew it out of my nose to make it land on this slice of bread that was on my desk and I ate it with no hands. It was like a satire on mukbangs... And it soothed my anger and sadness for the time being... INSTEAD OF CONSTANTLY GOING TO THE ASHLAND MALL WHERE I HAVE NOTHING TO DO, I would really like to go to a museum exhibit in Fremont, Ohio called OHIO: AN UNNATURAL HISTORY. It's about a lot of the supernatural legends of my home state like the Loveland Frogmen, Ohio Grassman, South Bay Bessie, Puckwudgie, and more. BUT OF COURSE, mom doesn't wanna do it... OH FECAL MATTER!  These cryptids are more family to me than most of my relatives... I really don't like my brother and sisters...

I think I previously mentioned my history of being bullied as a child but I feel the need to go more into detail... The bullying started when I was in 2nd grade but 4th grade(2005/2006) was the year that made a huge impact on me.. I had a crush on a girl named Jessica for a couple years... I actually got her some gifts from Mexico and her reaction was nothing but negative cosmos... She would just make fun of me in front of everyone in the class for feeling a magnetic energy towards her. And it was all because I had big, crooked teeth and I was short. And because of that combination, her and other kids would constantly talk about how I was a squirrel, beaver or some mutated rodent.. Or she would make drawings of me being gay, slap me in the face, and she would belittle me for being a Star Wars geek at the time. Lol. I can laugh at it now but at the time, it was off the charts humiliating because my crush was my biggest antagonist and bully. I remember one time, I was going into Mr. Akers class and she runs behind me and pulls and drops a bunch of books from my backpack as she laughs. And the teacher was right in front of us and he just looks at me while she's already in the room and says "WELL, PICK IT UP!". So, if you ever wonder why I have a hatred for society, that's just a fragment of a reason. Society is a lot like Frankenstein, it can be a real monster maker... Frankenstein was the scientist who made the monster, Frankenstein is not the name of the monster, BTW... Lol. And you're not just raised by your parents but you're also raised by a hypocritical society... 

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"HEYYYY ALL MY ZOMBIE TURKEYS! DID YA MISS ME!? "
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Hell no.

Have a friend with no acting skill (the average reader) read this aloud and you'll hear why it can't work. be warned, though, it's a really humbling experience. So stand where they can't see your face as tears start rolling down your face.