Too Cool for God

Shattered by my self-flagellation…

Shuttered by self-inflicted penance…

Lost, alone by self-design…

And seeking self-redemption…

I lost the thread of His great Mercy…

Buried myself in sackcloth and ashes…

Held my head up way too high…

Smiled and pretended I didn’t care…

Denied my lost and wandering soul…

Filled with greed, sycophants, eyeing fame…

Pirouette… smile… dance the empty dance…

When did I become too cool for God?

When life was drained of all true meaning…

Abandoned to spiritual starvation…

When left with this longing of my soul…

I became jaded, cynical, in-cohesive.

The Godly I saw as gullible,

Old fashioned and just plain creepy…

Bible thumpin’ fanatics -- religious nuts

But, a heart without words…

Facing an unknown future

In a world of confusion and noise…

Brought finally to finally realize

I can’t tune out the Voice of God.

A love for God sustains me.

A heart without word… restless…

May I always find rest in Him!

There’s joy in the presence of God,

And in every deed a purpose.

But, now I ask and I consider…

Am I cool enough for God?

Have I done too much and gone too wrong?

Am I still worthy of his Grace?

How can I even show my face?

Am I cool enough for God?

That doesn’t even matter!

‘Cause He’s cool enough for me!

by D. Denise Dianaty

Reviews

[Briana O'Connor]

Oh this is just soooo beautiful! I love your faith. It just rains from the page. As creepy as this sounds- Your love for God and translation from faith to written word gives me the urge to just hug you as my sister in Christ. Your words are astounding and inspiring. Thank you for raining a bit of faith on my day! :D

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you so much for your effusive praise. And, a hug in Christian fellowship is never creepy. :D

[Madeline]

Beautiful! This reminds me of my walk with faith, I wandered away, only to find Him again when I was "Lost and alone by self-design." What a beautiful reminder of our low humanity compared to His divine Grace!
Thank you for sharing this. :)

[MomzillaNC]

Thanks. I'm honored you found meaning in my words.