This Ravaged Hell

More words from the bad old past…

This Ravaged Hell

On my own…

Alone…

Left to wander…

In this ravaged hell… 

Abandoned…

No hope…

Left only pain…

In shadowed hollows…

No safe place…

Evil…

In the anger…

Of her baleful eye…

Beat… beating…

Lashing…

Again… again…

Never a reprieve

I can’t breathe…

Stifled…

Choking wimp…

Will this ever end?

Where’s refuge?

Haven?

Not in my home…

There is only mom.

by D. Denise Dianaty

Reviews

[Crowley]

The things that make great poets, writers and actors are the most damnable things this life can throw at us at times. From that pile of utter s**t comes words that rise up and tell a story of strength and understanding, a poultice for those who can identify and shelter for those still experiencing. Keep; pushing those words out of the shitpile...you are awesome. Great feeling to that pic by the way, it tells a thousand stories itself.

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you so much for your fulsome praise. I do hope my words help someone, bolster them through the moment.

Thanks for your compliment on my photo. I'm deeply drawn to such abandoned spaces. I especially like the abandoned rural places for the dichotomy of the decay of man's artifice being reclaimed by nature.

[PloughBoy]

I like the IMPACT font used here, MozmillaNC. It''s a real attention grabber.

Being an suffocating, overprotective parent is not an uncommon phenomenon, yet it still doesn't allow the child to grow, or to make their own decisions, good and bad. What it frequently does is leaves them open and vulnerable to the things they'll experience once the get their feet wet and their paws dirty in the "real world".

Nicely done, 'M'...

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you.

From the interesting perspective of your review, I would guess you to have been an gentle and loving dad. Certainly, I can see that your interpretation could be equally true.

The "suffocating" in this poem is a reference to the sensation of crying, while being beaten, until I was choking, suffocating from the asthma attacks those beatings often brought on. My childhood may have been in the Sunshine State, but the sun never touched my childhood. Thanks, again.

[PloughBoy]

That's a horrible thing for a child to have to go through, MomzillaNC. I'm so sorry to hear that, and you're very welcome.

[Frieda P]

OUCH this one hurts...the format really adds to make it even more profound, by the time that last line hits you, you're a goner!

[MomzillaNC]

Thanks. Gladly, my life has left those words far, far behind me now.

[Frieda P]

Alas, it always leave a scar behind. Seems a vicious cycle, my mom took it out on us since my 'father' used to slam her around, bunch of unhappy campers.

[MomzillaNC]

My mom went through a sever post-partem depression (she was institutionalized briefly -- just long enough to stop talking about killing herself, then sent home to her children -- all under seven years old), then spent 9 years stark-staring mad! She actually dragged herself back to sanity when she finally went to college, and began studying psychology as part of her degree in rehab education.

[Frieda P]

There's always a sad story behind it, geez, it's not easy dealing with depression, but then throw young kids into the mix, it's a cocktail for disaster.

[MomzillaNC]

I hope they know more about post-partem depression now than they did back then. At least they don't just dismiss it as the "baby blues" any longer. We're just very lucky such a severe post-partem break didn't result in something even more horrific…

[Frieda P]

I think we've come a long way, but you know there's always that stigma attached to a woman who can't deal with childbirth and her own baby.

[MomzillaNC]

I know. There's always a stigma when anyone needs help to cope… Folks seem to forget that humans are these fragile vessels of life, and that the truth is, it's amazing anyone ever finds the strength to keep surviving the bull rampaging through our fragility.

[Frieda P]

Funny that, not haha funny, but people accept a heart problem, or whatever, but when it comes to a mind blip, you're in deep you know what....no one can tolerate any kind of weakness as such.

[MomzillaNC]

I know. And the damage spun out by those folks trapped in that "ravaged hell" with those sufferers is the real tragedy of human existence. My mother wanted babies. She wanted to be a loving and happy mother with happy, well-adjusted children. She tried so hard before that break down. She completely lost that person in that institution.. A monster came home to us.

[Frieda P]

The system is broken in so many ways, you go in seeking help, and you come out ten times crazier.