So Far Away…

A poem about not being taken back in by the wrong person, and of what's to be gained by embracing the right one. It's specifically about the last boyfriend I had, and the healing love of my husband.

So Far Away…

Stolen… lost moments…

Deep hidden places…

Secret longing ache…

Rising ‘pon the precipice… falling…

Undulating, rushing sound…

Wall of music… rising pain…

Feeling like it’s all been done…

Got to go through Hell

To get to my Heaven

So far away…

I heard you crying loud…

Wailing outside my door…

Stealing voice from my pain…

Never thinking…

Of how things might’ve been.

Taking me… taking me down…

Tearing me apart.

Was it just a game for you?

Making me a fool… lost…

So far away…

To this door you have no key.

It’s closed to you forevermore.

My wounded heart bides 

In this sweet healing space.

What you lost, he gains…

Through trust… and gentle knocking…

Healing drams of love…

Laid at my feet, softly waiting.

Opening to love, I give my hand…

He whispers me a kiss…

Far from you… from pain… he takes me

So far away.

by D. Denise Dianaty

Reviews

[Leigh]

A tricky one to work out at first as the ways are love are rarely straight forward. There seems to be a lot of real element in here, if not you have certainly made it feel that way. This cast up a lot of imagery for me, as I suppose I can relate it to my own path to finding the right one. The title made me think of the Carole King song which is also beautiful.

[MomzillaNC]

Thank your for your review. I pleased it evoked such response from another. It is my own personal story, or, rather, the beginning of the rest of it.

[Shakier Samie]

Beautifully written. I felt personally and emotionally stirred by this poem. It just drew me in. Good poem :)

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you very much.

[Shekinah2015]

I am not sure what exactly this is about. But it is very beautiful, well written, and a great read. Keep working!

[MomzillaNC]

Well, it's about that bad for your relationship… you know, the one where your lover blows up the relationship, then comes back in abject misery, wanting you back… and about finding healing from that pain in a good relationship. It's, specifically, about the last boyfriend I had BEFORE my husband and I got together.

Thank you for your review.

[Shekinah2015]

Ooooh, I see. You should write that into the "description" field.

[MomzillaNC]

There's a companion poem, "Whisper Me A Kiss… " that illuminates that healing relationship, and tries to put into words this way my husband has that can only be described as whispering a kiss.

[Tam Warink]

The earth slides along hidden fault lines and love moves in much the same direction. This piece shows us that and from a place that may have been painful to visit. Nicely done.

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you. That's an interesting, and apropos perspective.

[Ayvid N]

I know the first type of guy. These are emotionally unavailable creatures and consummate actors. It is great that you did not take him back because nothing would have ever ever come of it. I know, I have been there. There is a saying that we have to shut old doors to open new ones. Reading your beautiful poem, I have realized it is very true. We have to move on once we see a red flag in relationships. Just flush. Awesome write!

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you. It's my sincerest hope that you too -- that everyone -- may come to know the kind of love my husband and I have built upon these last 23 years.

[Ayvid N]

I have also been lucky in breaking away from a really bad and addictive relationship. I am much happier and comfortable with my husband of 13 years. Though the feelings to return to haunt me sometimes and are a frequent fuel for my darker writes. Thank you Momzilla for the very positive vibes.

[MomzillaNC]

You're welcome. And, I know what you mean. We must all, as writers, find a way to tap into that well of darkness and pain for our words to be true. Otherwise, just go write ads! :D

[Ayvid N]

Thanks...Have a great weekend! :)

[MsJewel]

Questions of the heart so beautifully expressed. I love the last verse...healing dreams of love, laid at my feet, softly waiting. Such gorgeous imagery. A stunning poem. Welcome to WC. I look forward to reading more of your poetry

:) Julie

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you so much. BTW, it's "healing d-r-a-m-s of love," maybe a little Shakespearean, I know, but intended to convey the healing power or potion that true, never self-serving love can be.

[Rene Salinas]

What a redeeming nature in this words. Acceptance too I guess in order to bring closure to ones experiences which left us upside down emotionally speaking, we need to simmer and bring about a redeeming quality to move on. The whole aspect of letting someone in again a tough one. It is hardly impossible not to mantain a certain dose of distance so that the same experience does not repeat. The writing touches upon this and much more, I feel gently moved around by the words, at times so gentle that i forget that some of those experience are actually quite sad.

Redemption time.

Thankyou

[MomzillaNC]

Okay, this is weird. I posted a message thanking your for your review, but it seems to have been lost in the ether.

Thank you for your illuminating critique of my work. I began this piece with the intent to write about those first few, so tender weeks of a new love. But, it made me remember the last encounter with my boyfriend before my husband; of his betrayal of me, then showing up in his own misery and self-drama. It felt like he was co-opting my pain of his actions. That was just weeks before I met my husband. If I'd taken him back… Well, I can't even imagine it. Closing the door on him, literally, and on that relationship, figuratively, was the smartest thing I ever did. And the last 23 years with my husband is my continuing reward.

Thanks, again, for your thoughtful and kind review.

[Rene Salinas]

That turned out alright in the end. Happy to hear.

[MomzillaNC]

It amazes me still to think what a gift I've received. A miracle to find my true soul mate, a miracle to stay together, a miracle to keep loving more each year, and a miracle in our son (who took 12 years to join us!). We married when we were both 28. Both of us had been through bad relationships and come perilously close to marrying others before we found each other, and under tremendous pressure to marry as well.

Of course, but the time I got around to marrying, my Christian Fundamentalist parents were just glad he was a man -- so glad that they completely embraced my Middle Eastern husband (especially after the "views" they'd had about some of my college peers who'd not been your typical WASP). In fact, my husband is their favorite son-in-law; they'll readily tell anyone who'll listen what a "catch" I made in him and how he treats me like a treasure. He really does treat me like a treasure; but then, I treat him like the treasure he is too; and we both treat our son like the miraculous gift and treasure he is.

[Taurean X Hunter]

I really like this! Very beautiful.

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Oh I detect a bit of Poe in your work, that is a compliment cause I am a big Poe fan.
Love is a tricky thing for sure filled with questions like is it worth the pain? Is it worth the trouble? Is it worth our time? I say yes to all of them, love is the biggest risk we can take but has the sweetest rewards.

[MomzillaNC]

Wow! Poe? I'm incredibly honored to be compared even in the smallest way with the great Poe! Thank you so much!

[The Rock And Roll Cowboy(REBEL WITH A CAUSE)]

I call em like I read em… you are very welcome.

[AprilRN1210]

sometimes I have often wondered that same question... "was it just a game?".... those walls are necessary but as you so aptly put it, "Through trust… and gentle knocking" there can be love found again..

"Got to go through Hell
To get to my Heaven".... I have been told this.. several times actually... still waiting on my key into this "heaven".... but like this poem illustrates, my walls can be seized... love can be found.. there is still hope... it may be "so far away"....

It's those "might have been" and what if's that will tear you apart.. I know... been there, done that...

this one is moving, honest, and straightforward.... If flowed beautifully.... well done..

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you so much. For a lighter read, try "Ten Year Old Boy."

[AprilRN1210]

I shall do.. it was my pleasure..