Monsters

More of my past and finding my way out

Monsters

Monsters, monsters everywhere…

Mother monster too wounded to care…

Monster peers so vile…

Kindred monsters, secrets keeping…

Hounding, pounding, clutching, tearing…

Monster peers catching you out of sight…

Ripping cloth, clutching you and dragging…

To hateful, vile purpose.

Kindred monsters, can’t be trusted…

Touching, whispering loathsome words…

Hidden moments, scarring the soul…

Keep the secret or worse will come.

Belts swing, bruises rise black and purple…

Cutting deep, whipping, lashing switches…

Monster Mother played out her rage…

Her wounded soul striped ‘pon her babes.

I wasn’t becoming the monster I hated…

I was falling… falling… falling…

Down a black, endless chasm…

Toward complete self obliteration.

Until a new friend, sister of my heart…

Walked me out of the darkness…

Picked me up, egged me on…

Wouldn’t let me stop ’til we embraced the light!

by D. Denise Dianaty

Author's Note

I wish I'd had the courage to share this particular poem with the very dear friend who helped me find my way to wholeness. Happily, it's not too late because she's still my very best friend and sister of my heart. In fact, she's the one who told me about writerscafe.com and encouraged me to join.

Reviews

[Robert Trakofler]

as much as I hate the wretched that has befallen me in the past I also embrace it now for in its own way it molded the person I am today:) and that cherub that pulled you from the ground who saw a beautiful thing in need of a mirror is the person I too have become

[MomzillaNC]

Beautiful response from a beautiful soul. Thank you.

[Sami Khalil]

Glad to see a winner in the struggles of life, its ups and downs and its endless chasms. Excellent...:).....................

[MomzillaNC]

Thanks so much. It was hard fought, but I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for that dear friend, the sister of my heart. I'm sure I wouldn't have my wonderful husband nor my beautiful son; I'd never have become the person my husband fell in love with if not for my friend.

[Sami Khalil]

Great. You are welcome...:)................

[Alejandra Marie]

Wow, this is so beautiful and so relatable. I can feel your pain and struggle. It hits home. I can resonate with you. I'm so glad you made it through. Thank you for sharing such an inspiring poem. Your emotion definitely shines through.

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you. I'm honored you found meaning in my words.

[Sindu]

I cannot know what you had been through but can share the pain and I am truly sorry for what you had to go through. You rose out if it like any great soul with a helping hand. This tells such a descriptive story paints a picture filled with struggle and journey. It is a war story.

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you for your review. But, really, aren't all our lives stories of battles?

[Sindu]

Welcome!! Ofcourse everyone wages a different battle :)

[therisa]

Thank you, Momzilla, for suggesting this poem to me.

This poem hits too close to home, for me, as I was abused, by my younger brother (physical and psychological) and my mom (psychological), before I turned my back on them and walked away. This November, will mark the 2nd anniversary, of breaking all ties with my mom. Even now, find myself, wondering, what did I do, to deserve such treatment, from my own family. A question, which I will never find an answer for, as I don't have any contact, with them.

I hope, by writing and sharing, this powerful poem, you have found some release from your tortured past.

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you. These words are old ones. I left that past behind me a long time ago, thankfully. And, I've had a world of joys for ever torment since then. I wake up every single day knowing my life is miraculous.

[therisa]

Am glad, to read this, Momzilla. Being trapped, in the past, is the cruelest place, one can find themselves, in.

[MomzillaNC]

Absolutely. Being trapped in the past is abrogating the future… it's the death of Hope.

[Tina Louise UK]

This poem made me think of all the monsters that have been in my life and there have been so many, you are so lucky to have found a special friend, they are hard to come by. Awesome piece of writing hun :) x

[MomzillaNC]

Thank you.