I'm new

I'm new. 

I can't seem to escape these two words. This chapter in my life is filled with job applications, first days, training shifts, and dead ends. Needless to say, this is not where I expected to be at this age. Somewhat jobless, somewhat homeless and very much so lost. But not so much surprised. Never did I have an answer to the question, "what do you want to be when you grow up?" I suffer from many interests but not enough interest to stick to any one thing. 

Tell us about yourself. Your strengths, your weaknesses, your passion. What makes you tick?

How these questions seem impossible to answer. When you have no idea who you really are from one minute to the next.

When you are so unsure of yourself that it keeps you up at night 

How can I tell you about myself when I'm not even sure.

How can I demonstrate confidence and self-worth if I don't believe it myself?

I don't know. I'm new to me too.

Where are you from leaves me muttering and stumbling and only with an answer that leaves even me confused.

Where am I from? 

I don't know but I'm new. 

That I know for sure. I'm new and I have no idea what I'm doing, where I'm going or how long it will take to get there. 

Hello? What's your name? 

New.

New to adulthood, maturity, real life. 

New to my choices making a real impact on the rest of my life.

New to real loss and pain and learning to move on.

New to looking out for myself because I just learned no one else truly can. 

New to being alone and the realization that this life is really just you.

Some questions on those applications are easier than others. 

What school did you go to? Easy. Did you graduate? Yes. Got that. Have you ever been convicted of a crime? Now it getting harder.

Tell us why we should hire you?

Got me. Speechless. 

But somehow they keep hiring me because I keep finding myself in the same situation. 

Hello. I'm Molly, I'm new.

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[wordman]

new begginings every where we turn,lot of nosey people asking a lot of personal questions