"Alone"

I look in the mirror and all I see

Is some who is all alone looking back at me

I ask myself “ Why not make some friends?”

“Why be ashamed of who you are?”

Then I remember, no one will be able to comprehend

I am gone way too far

I am trapped in my own body and there is no escaping

To my suffering, there is no end

I am a prisoner of my mind and body

And I don’t have anybody

No one to tell me it will be alright

Or to talk to me through the night

I need to scream out and ask for an aid

But I’m scared that will make them afraid

Treat me like a grenade ready to explode

I know it already

And all I want to be is normal

But all I am is unsteady

All I can be is abnormal

Sure, I have my family

And they love me every second of every day

But they will never understand

I need to keep these feelings away

They have problems of their own

I only ever make things worse

It hurts to know you are a burden

It really really hurts

To know you are probably not worth it

To be welcome, I have to be stone

Show no emotion or pain outside

To only have died on the inside

I close out everybody

Because of all the issues I embody

I have no desire to fight

I no longer see the light

Maybe it’s time to consider the blade

Or the time to be unafraid

I don’t want to give anyone a fear bestowment

I want myself and my family to be steady

And all I want is for us to be formal

But I am an issue already

All we can be is informal

So please help me now

This is my cry for help

Please teach me how

To achieve self-help

I am ready now

I can do this no longer

I can’t disallow

A hope to be stronger

I don’t wanna be alone

I want to be part of society

I need not only be in my zone

I need to rid of my anxiety

So please help me now

Before it’s too late

I want to be better, so I’ll take a vow

I need to before I meet my fate

Author's Note

Please give me any feedback you have.

Reviews

[Wesley Dingler]

I need to rid of my anxiety I thought maybe should be i need to rid (myself) of my anxiety. If this is not an accident ignore me.
But on the poem itself the rhyme and meter are a good start.
The concept was one I as a loner myself understand very well. And it was well projected.

Keep writing and growing into your style Amalia and you'll find the word for every thought you've ever had.


I look forward to seeing how your ability developed in the future.

Thanks for sharing.



-wes

[Amalia W.]

Thank you very much for your feedback, and I'm glad you could understand it. I was a little unsure on whether I should share it.

[Serendipity Planet]

I could relate to your words here , your feelings are powerful and you express them in a beautiful way

[Amalia W.]

Thank you!