I want my heart back

A Poem by Molly

A poem based on the grief cycle 1: shock and denial. 2. Pain and guilt. 3: Anger and bargaining 4: depression 5: the upward turn 6: reconstruction and working through 7: acceptance and hope

I just called to say ...
I'd like my heart back please.
When I gave it to you,...
I was under the expectation that you would recognise its value ...
But you didn't.... And in fact you were so neglectful that you broke it (1)

I'd like to think that you probably didn't mean to break it (2)
but by the way you were treating it,... it should have been obvious that it couldn't take it

Everyday you shafted it with a knife so blunt... That had you used(3) any other weapon it would have been a blessing...
.. And then sometimes I think... Were you trying to see where my love would rest....
And that it wasn't my heart, but me, you were putting to the test?

The wounds you made cut deep!
And the scars (4) you left were wide...
But I cleaned them every day...
With tears and a salve of love applied.

And, although you said you were sorry once...
Your actions betrayed the truth!
That you didn't... And don't... Deserve this gift and that I should ask
ME too cut YOU loose (5)

I know you think you own it
Because I gave it to you once
But you only get to keep it
If you treat it with God's love (6)

It's rhythm slowed years ago eventually to stop
You slowly chipped away its parts,
And it's will to beat it lost.

So now I'd like it back, so I can heal its broken spots...
(7) Please collect it from the trash bin...where last I saw it tossed.