I wrote a song, you wrote a bittersweet eulogy

I hope you feel good now for what you have done to me. 
Pretending I was nothing, you threw away everything. 
I know I'm not perfect but I tried to be a morsel of good. 
But it's apparent he's better than I ever could
Be 
So proclaim to who the heart really directs to. 
For now lost and broken is how I shall awaken. 

Sleeping will be more of a challenge than it already his
Since all I picture is your mouth on his...
Detail can't be described
For ever a scribe could not realize
That after s**t day in and day out
I thought it was time to love again and had no doubt
And full trust in you I bestow 
And you played me like I'm nothing
And you'll never know
Nor understand how it kills
To hand over a shattered heart, hoping you'd bandage. 
And without you I felt I couldn't manage. 
But now it's best I forget what had been lost...

Author's Note

I don't write to please people, but to clear my mind and express what was felt at that exact moment.