Russian Roulette Can't Heal My Sickness

Another sleepless night, I dream of your skin
But having you here now would kill me within 
Just knowing that you said your were mine, but then again,
You were also his hold
As my heart slowly fades to black, my blood runs so cold

One kiss from your lips is all I hoped for
I gave myself to you, the girl that I adored 
But no more
Betrayed can't describe the feelings inside
Was this the first time ?
Or is it just hard to recall the others ?

Don't come saying you love me now
Since you forgot our "love" with him in your mouth. 
F**k sympathy, you cast me aside
For another for one night
Was it truly right
And after you say you love me ?

One kiss from your lips is all I hoped for
I gave myself to you, the girl that I adored 
But no more
Betrayed can't describe the feelings inside
Was this the first time ?
Or is it just hard to recall the others ?

Author's Note

I don't write to please people, but to clear my mind and express what was felt at that exact moment.