Followed By Future (Watched By Past)

This was also part of my free flow phase

Things in my past I admit has sometime got the best of me.
I was told and often tried and feel as if too; I had been lied to... to not let it effect me.
I am not perfect, but I know in my heart that somewhere through all the madness and pain it was worth it.
I am sometime feeling as if I am watched by my past by people of a totally different cast. Trying to shape a missing piece of my future to see how long it will last.
The emotional trouble I been through...
To be honest and true the things that are hitting me way so fast.
A person that seems so nice reminds me so much like someone else did in my past life.
It's hard and baring to the point of using the prefix of un.
Yet I used to ask myself
Why?
Why am I caring why am I the one?
It feels as if the good is bad and the bad is good.
Leaving me ever so misunderstood..
Yet somehow I can and will get away from it all, but yet I still stand still.
Is it a way I am setting myself up for the emotional kill?
Can I say it is a positive will?
Is there hope?
At the end of the tunnel with my future being the thing that follows why I am being watched by my past.
Is it something I can make without it being shot down my throat?
It's hard to say sometime I feel like departing, but in the mean time till something changes my mind I am going to keep fighting and walking...

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