I Can't Believe

I can't believe all I see, or all I hear sometime

Don't waste my time....

Don't smile at me in my face.

I question why I cared so much.

Maybe cause I saw a future in you, and with you.

The only thing you have done to this moment is to bring back the past and pain from the first place.

Don't extend your hand.

I am not your boy..

I am not your man.

I tried my best to keep it real with you. Everyone boy, girl, woman, or man.

When I tried so hard to keep it real.

You could give less of a damn.

I came to you for advice as my so call partner, but you just tried to cheer me up.

In code... In between the lines you did not understand.

So here is my plan.

Not of attack, but change.

To all that has made an impact on my life I wish for you to stay.

Cause you know who you are.

Those who know who cause me so much pain and confusion thinking as they are reading.

If you hurt others like you hurt me. You are the ones that need to go away.

I am tired of getting my hopes up.

How pure can a lie get.

You full of s$$$

You love dogs how fitting cause you acting like a son of a b%%%%

I tried to open up to those who I thought I can call friend, but it took me to get on this site.

This site to find out that the real people are not even around me, yet they help me unlike you to support my dreams and thoughts.

...My thirst to win.

So if you are a demon in my heart I will soon take you out.

All you ever done was cause me to cry.

Cause me to scream.

Cause me to shout.

Cause me to forget who I am.

To a point I lost grip on what reality was, but now that your true colors are now I know friend that is what you truly about.

I wish you the best.

The success of the highest to the high.

Maybe you can find another boy, or a friend that you can sucker in.

Tell all those nice things to.

If I am around I would be the one to call your hand so quick.

“Watch the lie”

So don't see me on the street.

Don't say hi.

You are now just another stranger.

That I look at and laugh at that adds fuel to the fire of my frustration and anger.

That just looks as I watch you watch me walk by.

Don't think of me.

Cause your smell I am sick of.

Sick of being reminded.

How close we were, yet I can not get away from these things that use to take me to you.

Man sometime I wonder if you are the one behind it.

Though know that through the high and low.

I will continue to show emotion cause I am human, but for now I am done with you.

I am no library book that you can check in and out when you feel like using.

I really don't know what to say.

“I never thought that you.”

You would be the one, or for that matter one of the many people who try to make me hurt and want to get out of your life and way.

So now if it makes you feel better I am gone.

Out my life you can be gone.

Feel free to go away.....

Author's Note

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