One Final Time (A Wish Upon His Love)

I wish upon it

One finial time I will call your name.

One final time I will try and tell you, and explain to you the reasons why I feel so much pain.

On how I feel that you are happy one second, and the next I cause myself and you so many feelings. The result is you are not the same.

I will say that I feel so hurt when others flirt with you. Not that I don't trust you, but knowing that you are not mine.

That I will become a memory in your mind.

Another minuet on your watch that is called this life.

As each second goes by that is how I will feel, and no longer will you want to tell time.

That I will no longer be of ones concern.

One finial time I will tell you that I love you, but maybe I am not good enough.

Although I feel that you smile and say these things to make me feel good, but like an idiot I am not even paying attention.

I guess the lessons of watch girls even the ones you like the most is something I will never learn.

One finial time I will say that a phone call was all I ever really needed.

That a text saying I was thinking of you would pick me up off the ground when I felt defeated.

Though if you were to read this you would say it takes two.

Though that may be true.

Yet the pain I feel and the anger that lies In my soul on the nights I die for love, and my skin is cold where a pen and paper is the only thing that understands what I been through since you were the cause, and this was the effect.

There was no one else I can talk to, but at the same time there is no one that I can say I told.

When there is someone I wanted to hold. You held me by my heart, and with your hand you choked it till it bleed through.

You have a right to your opinion, but almost everything in life takes two.

One finial time I will try and say that I need you in my life.

That you could make a man the perfect wife.

Though you neglect my feelings, and the more It happens I ask myself why am I in this fight?

One finial time I will have one last cry, and ask myself why?

With you so hard I try?

To get away, but the more I do I am reminded and then a small ounce of good happens, and then I am the one to get happy.

…....Here I am again

…...Here I hurt again

…...Here I stay.

If you can feel what I feel then maybe you can understand.

If you want me out your life say it.

Treat me like a dog.

You do it to my emotions.

Put the fence around your heart with the barbwire that shocks me, so maybe I can stay away.

Then I will learn the command.

I be dammed.

One finial time I will say that more often than not you would be the only thing that I think on, but you come down here do your heartbreak ways then want to apologize when you are gone.

A switch off then on.

Containing beauty, but having ways like a black swan.

Going out is no longer what you are about.

You leave me in this rain of my own tears, and there is no drought.

Though there is a drop...

A drop of my heart that I gave to you from the start, and you gave and have been given me a thank you by doing what you may or may not know you doing, and that is ripping it apart.

The thought of you with another drives me crazy.

As this daisy so I thought has thorns on it. With an expiration date that comes with it.

Is this true?

I am starting to think maybe.

One final time I will say that I can't listen to no slow music.

Knowing that it kills me from head to toe and mentally I lose it.

One finial time I will say that on this day.

That if this is the last poem I ever write about you I will get on two knees and say that I wish she would have decided to stay, but why I am getting mad when things are not going my way.

That the way I was around you was the real me, and it was not something that I was trying to portray.

That you caused me so much joy, and so much hurt.

That if you are the one for me I will love it, but if I am not and someone else gets you I hope that you two have the best life, and that doing what you did to me was worth.

That he gives you all the love, and as much as I may be hurting you will still have my support, but I had to tell you all of this cause I know if I had my way you would be here by my choice not by fate.

I would see your smile and always take you away on a date, but I know love and I have so much to give, but know now that all I said I was not saying this for fun, or just a pick up line. I

I said it cause I love you, and like everything else like these words I have just said it for the last time

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