Me

Title: Me....

By: Joshua Casimier

Date: September 22, 2014

I saw you....

I saw her...

I saw him..

D****t I know what I heard and seen the lights were dim then you called me trying to explain your case, but said that you like and loved me for who I am and was.

While having the audacity to come with flowers and candy in my face.

It's funny how emotion and the five senses can get us in trouble, or make us assume.

Although so many people I talk to friends, family, god, the dead even myself they all told the same words let it be.

I argued with myself and turned my back on it.

Though I felt lazy cause your ex tried to resurface and no one I would never curse with this, but know that I hope she goes off the cliff into the hands of the devil cause you took my heart to hell.

While you purchased it when I gave it to you for free.

...Though don't worry its okay I am not crazy, but when you arrive I will be waiting once you get there, but I am not crazy.. If I am its hard for people to tell.

I recall when we first tried to make each other happy.

We ended up getting in a fight you had a kid or two, but we never stayed angry like we do now which happens to carry over from the morning, to the day, to the night.

I hate it so much..

Because we were so close.

I blame the senses once again for the way that I feel..

The sight of seeing while I was still dreaming on the conversation of marriage that we talked about all the time, but then when you gave that ring to someone one else on Valentine day which was also my birthday there was no way that I can keep putting up with your ways while continuously putting up with what you put me through saying and forcing myself to be fine.

While hearing time and time again from so many people except for you like a movie sequel I am waiting to here the information out of the horses mouth while waiting for you to at least say you love me, but I am hearing that you don't want me. So apparently I am no longer a keeper.

On the other hand I have to laugh cause its bitter sweet cause I can taste the fact of me just wanting to kick you in the a*s and saying go away. The hell with the pretty theories along with those countless nights with the liquor and your so call friend.

Selling me a story once upon a time oh man please not this s**t again.

Reality hits me in time at times I miss your touch..

The thought of touching you..

Feeling you next to me while smelling your cent of the odor that radiates from your body that drove me wild all along you wanted someone else and not me.

When I played parent to your child.

Brining you to work..

I brought you food.

Now you bring someone into the confines of our hearts.

Relationship..

Privacy... That is not cool.

Turning the other cheek at times it makes me weak cause I can't bare the thought of doing without you, but now I know what you are about.

So here is your phone sorry the message is long.

Sorry that you screwed up so send this forward it to that other person you decide to be with.

Share it on facebook, twitter, instagram, or wherever you want so they can know how you lost out.

….P.S

I have your stuff in the room the door is unlocked I want it all out.

If not soon it will be for the street to see.

Cause people use to say why do you let them do that to you.

Although all this time now I see the reason it was happening because I allowed it, so I don't blame you for fault.

...It was me