Once again

And here you are, apologizing once again
Why can't you just leave it alone?
You didn't just hurt me
You killed me
Talking to you is like twisting a knife into my heart
And you want me to forget everything so we can be friends
But I just can't yet
My whole body shakes as you text me
And you tell me that you weren't good enough for me
That I deserve someone much better
That you regret hurting me
And you say you ruin everything you touch
Hurt everyone you love
And something in me wants to scream that it's not true
But how can I?
You ruined me, totally, completely
You enjoyed our time together and wouldn't change any of that
But I would
I would erase it from existence if I could
Because all you gave me was nights of sobbing on my closet floor
And anger every time my phone buzzed
And a pain that consumed my entire being
I gave you everything that I could
But you were so selfish
That you threw it all away for your own benefit
And now you know
How much you hurt me
You realize you shouldn't have left me
Not like you did
But everything is too late
And we both regret it