Life as I know it

A Poem by Mithali

This is for all the brave and bold people, who have faced things boldly!!

Life as I know it!!!!
I just stepped into the world
I am just starting to know things
I don't know if I can keep myself always at the top
Or maybe I don't know if always people or circumstances will try to put me down
Then I get bewildered about these thoughts
I get nervous,I start to get thoughts in my mind which is unwanted and uncanny
I get deranged at my surroundings,
But then I realize there is hope, not everything is doubtful or bad
I'll help myself, give hope for myself, work hard to achieve my goals, I'll avoid the crap!!!!
Then another thing comes into my life, the betrayal and backstabbing part of my life!!!!
I'll start to believe that people follow strange practices like hypocrisy...
I'll feel like not trusting anyone
I'll get lonely
I'll get thoughts of getting betrayed, I'll start to crawl into my thoughts of negativity
But then I met people who are just the people I wanted, the people who I can hold onto without no apparent hesitation, people who keep me happy
So at this point of time I'll feel insanely happy
And this part of my life scares me, the part where I'll not know where I should step into
I'll get bemused, I'll feel strange, I'll get mixed emotions
I'll feel inexperienced and this feeling will make me think on my actions
I'll start experiencing the unwanted or wanted
And that may scare me or convince me at times too....
And I'll be happy because I'll know what is wrong and right
And I'll realize that one simple fact that life is full of ups and downs
And in life I'll reach a point where I no longer give a damn, I'll start living for myself, will keep myself at top priority, will realize what I am worth for
I'll start to take life as it comes because everything and anything that enters your life will affect in unique ways
I'll be happy because I can call myself an experienced person on earth
And at the end.....all that counts a lot in one's life is happiness�'�......
-MITHALI....