When Realisation Dawned

It takes forever to realise

The first time I opened 

 my eyes to the light,

 I got my sight, 

But didn't know what was right. 

 The first time I walked a path, 

I had a hand to hold, 

But didn't know what was ahead my path, 

Or what my future held. 

 The first time I spoke, 

Even an absurd sound was applauded, 

But I didn't know all this flatter 

At the end will not matter. 

 The first time I scribbled, 

Even the illegible words 

Were a treasure 

That gave them pleasure. 

Every time I did something 

For the first time, 

I didn't know I would feel that everything 

Only For the last time.

The last time I scribbled,

Even the most legible words

were a trash

unless it was for cash.

The last time I spoke

even the most wise words

made them run away

as if they were swords.

The last time I walked

I only had a cane to hold,

I knew what was ahead 

I had to give everything I withheld.

The last time 

I closed my eyes,

I lost my sight,

finally knowing what was right.

Every time I did some

for the last time,

I realized everything for the first time.