The Cup and The Key

Just a little (well, maybe not so little) poem inspired by the struggles of life.

What's wrong with me?

I wish you'd show me what I can't see-

What in the hell is wrong

what in the world is going on

inside my head-

I'm living yet I feel so dead.

Please help me-please

Somebody give me the keys

that I so desperately need

to fix this mess that is me!

I'm so lost and afraid-

afraid there is no aid

that everything I do-

if I flew to the the moon

it's be in vain-

my life is insane.

Slow down Life- please

please just let me be

I can't take this-

cross all these dreams off my list

Life- why are you so cruel,

why is everything a fight or a duel?

Well I'm done-I give up

and when I look at this cup

it's half empty not full

Life, do you think me a fool?

I see the truth now-

I've removed Life's awful shroud,

to see his black heart

his actions- his evil art.

You gave me one thing good,

like I'd so hoped you would

but Life- it isn't enough

it's all still so tough.

What have I done-

I swear I didn't run

from the ideals and values,

please give me some clues...

Am I good, am I bad

Please Life- just a tad,

just a little information

to begin my reformation-

so I can be happy too

and feel it's really true.

My heart feels like lead-

Life I'd rather be dead

than keep this struggle up,

Please- give me a new cup,

one that's half full not empty

so that i can finally be happy being me.

Is that too much to ask

Life, this isn't an act

I'm breaking down- this is it

I feel just like a zit-

I'm not wanted not loved

just pushed around and shoved-

aggravated to the top

until BURST!!   I pop...

This pressure is too much,

nobody wants to touch 

this festering sore-

I don't want to live anymore.

I just want to die

to say my goodbyes

to the pain and the hurt-

and go rot in the dirt

with my hopes and my dreams-

I just need to know what Life means.

Please- before it's too late

I don't want to walk through that gate

not now- not alone

I don't want hell to be my home.

So somebody please-

look at me and see 

that I'm hurting- I'm scared

and show me you care.

Happiness is all I want

But Life simply wants to taunt-

giving me so much bad with the good-

why must happiness allude-

me and only me?

Please Life- give me the key.

Author's Note

It's a rough draft, so you are welcome to critique as much as you like.

Reviews

[Beaner166]

The happiness you chase, always feeling close only to be ripped away. I do know how you feel. The one thing I want in this life is always just so far out of my reach. I may never figure out how to get ahold of it and make it mine, but that's my problem. Decent piece but needs some refining, if I told you how and where it'd be too easy. Now it's your turn to review something of mine :P

[Coyote Poetry]

A powerful write dear Poet.
"Happiness is all I want
But Life simply wants to taunt-
giving me so much bad with the good-
why must happiness allude-
me and only me?
Please Life- give me the key."
I told my kids. Travel, test life and have fun before you become old. Life is our decision. Choice the good road. Better to lived and fail than played hide and seek. Wished we were fearless once. Your good words left things to ponder. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote