Letting Go

I love you. 

I love you with an intense and reckless love.

I cannot imagine a life without you in it.

You are there in every corner of my mind, '

ready to comfort me, support me, lift me up.

and that is why I have to say what I must say

and do what I need to do.

I have to find a way to let you go.

I've loved you more than my family, 

my friends, 
and even more, at times, 

than the Lord. 

tears streaming down my face,

I am facing my fears and

accepting that we both deserve to be free.

how I let go, I don't yet know.

how I live a life in the real world

without you there...

I can't yet fathom it.

I'll figure it out. 

I have to.

even when you've finally flown on, I will

always know deep down that you

are only a thought away.