I'm not the same

A Poem by MissMeNot

Changed by heart break.

I’m not the same girl I used to be.
Believing in daydreams and ‘meant to be’.
The innocent’s hope that anything is possible.
And true love was unbreakable, even unstoppable.

Oh what a silly little girl I was.
Clinging to the idea of ‘just because’.
Not knowing the true dangers lurking beneath the surface,
Opening my heart like a ringmaster opens the circus.
“Come one, come all. It’s amazing to see…for there has never been one so stupid as she!”
For mine was not his first heart to break,
Now the permanent scars cannot be erased.

Oh what a silly girl I had been.
To give him a piece of my heart again.
Though he was not the same man,
He was a man just the same,
I gladly took his offered hand,
And skipped down Fairytale Lane,
Because this time would be different.
Because he was my ‘meant to be’
No matter what my mind was screaming,
He said he loved me.

Oh what happen to the silly little girl that once was,
Now replaced with the woman whose heart remains shut,
Unable to feel anything inside,
Other than the occasional sexual desire,
The emotions locked down �" no longer exist.
She goes through the motions �" even down to the kiss.

She knows she’ll hurt him, no matter his name,
He’s not the same man, but a man just the same.
Because though she wants to be the silly little girl,
Who believes in miracles and love in this world.
The calloused woman is who is left behind,
After too many times broken, the silly little girl died.