Discarded

Oh, the angsty teenage heartbreak. I can almost taste it, I don't know why I wasted my time with that guy. Looking back it seems pretty obvious he was using me, but I guess hind sight is 20-20.

To be honest you're infuriating
Beyond all words
And endlessly frustrating,
Testing my nerves.

Know all the wrong words to say,
Driving me insane;
Hurting me in more than one way.
But forget the pain.

I can't hide and pretend
That I don't think of you;
Type messages I never send,
Its just something I can't do.

Because I don't know how you'll react,
Can't figure you out.
You've always me left feeling attacked;
Betrayed and hurt, forgotten about.

But those things disappear
When I really think of you,
And I just need you here.
But there's nothin I can do.

I know it was all a game.
I should've left my feelings unshown.
And avoided the sting of shame-
Oh I should've known.

But things happened
And mistakes were made,
Ones that should be forgotten
And will in time, once all feelings fade.

I don't know why I'm writing.
I just couldn't keep it in
But I think I'm done fighting,
This time I'm hitting send.

Author's Note

I don't even know how old I was when I wrote this; freshman in high school maybe, just keep that in mind please. Thank you