Dis-ease

It just sits in there...

This pit

This rock

This immovable knot

 

-Kinking and binding-

 

I wait impatiently

For the 'White Coats'

To make up their minds

Whether my needs are important enough to save

 

Or the inevitable goodbyes

I want to run away from kicking and screaming.

Or you, the 'dis-ease' that I want to Play hide and seek with

Never giving you a clue where I'm hiding so you can't take her away from me before I'm ready...

 

It makes me mad...

 

Cancer-looming so close.

 

What did I ever do to you?

 

You creep up like a thief

A rapist

Stripping away their self-esteem

Traumatizing their bodies The family.

 

You steal away dreams...

Bring tears

Fears

Pain

Suffering

 

And all too soon... 

We're not done yet.... 

But you don't care-

 

"There is a purpose for everything" they say, "She's needed for something more important" they say...

 

Well I say "I need her for something important too... 

The rest of my life."