I Am

Another English assignment that had to be written around phrases, such as "I am", "I see", "I feel", etc.

I am a student slowly losing myself.
I wonder who notices that I’ve disappeared.
I hear their words penetrating the deafening silence.
I see their smiles, mocking my insecurity.
I want to be saved, but no one can save me now.
I am a student slowly losing myself.

I pretend to exist in their fictional happiness.
I feel their gaze judging my simplicity.
I touch my feelings with a fragile hope of healing.
I worry these scars will never fade away.
I cry for the lost friends and loves of my life.
I am a student slowly losing myself.

I understand that things will never change
I say that I’m okay with being their outcast.
I dream that others can avoid this agony and guilt.
I try to refrain from showing my pain.
I hope there’s an easier way out of this pit.
I am a student slowly losing myself.

Reviews

[Jack]

Excellent poem. Being a college student I can definitely relate to these emotions that can creep up on you in a way that they never used to. Growing up is a painful process since trying to find yourself yet pleasing others is a difficult balance to find. You captured one end of it nicely though. good work!

[RDOriginal]

This is an interesting study in creeping alienation and you certainly describe many of the feelings all of us experience, not just as a student but throughout life. I like your use of repetition, harking back to the student them... I'd be interested to know if you might have used it so often if this piece hadn't been written as an assignment - perhaps you felt like this poem was being forced out of you purely because it was homework? My favourite line is "I pretend to exist in their fictional happiness" - there's such bitterness in there, it's delightful!

[Mauricio Montoya]

What I get from the piece is trying to find acceptance from our surroundings and weather were right or wrong and will it matter as we learn. At least for me cause I struggle with these question everyday in my life. Excellent write.

[J.M. Barrett]

I love the "I am a student slowly losing myself" verse that is consistent throughout the poetry.

"I touch my feelings with a fragile hope of healing."
Wonderful line! Very poetic.

Altogether, very nice poem. Though depressing. :/

[Punk rocker]

A classic story of the outcast good job