Lost in between

Statements of mystical truths and palpable absurdities overwhelm my mind with unintelligible euphoria. Locking myself in the comfort of solitude, I unleash all eccentric thoughts generated throughout my day. They surge frantically towards me, like a pack of wolves ravenously storming towards their prey. But unlike the ill-fated game, I stand fearlessly, waiting of my brain-work to devour me. Once I evaporate from the standard norms of sanity, walking in the vicinity of delirium and psychosis, I meet a person who is not quite crazy nor balanced , not happy nor miserable, a person who is driven by an incomprehensible desire to live but also to kill themselves. And for those who have not guessed, that person is me. I am often scared to detach from the safe asylum I have found peace and acceptance in, so many times, as much as I am scared to abide it and disconnected from a world that is far greater than my refuge . Often terrified to be unable to sense the sedative sentiments offered only by sadness, and to unwillingly obliterate the release of endorphins and subsequently forget what happiness is. Often frightened from the dilemmatic continuum of life and suicide. Yet, behind all this fear and terror, I recognize myself as a person in a state of equilibrium, in a state of balace. Not gravitated by any force, except that of mystery. I refuse to reach for one end and neglect the other. And most of all, I refuse to fully know myself. Limiting a limitless world, a limitless self is the most absurd of all absurdities.

Reviews

[Leo]

Amira I found eloquence in your introspective melody that took me on a journey of deeply extracted emotions expressed in beautiful artistic words and imagery..perhaps fully knowing oneself means a dire sacrifice and submission of one's ego..inspiring and thought provoking poem! bravo