Feelings Are Real

A vague tour of life.

Fear is clear in my mind
Kind of freaking out inside
I ride a roller coaster of emotions now
I'm smaller than the required height so they tied me to the front and every pebble hits me at high speeds
It hurts so much every time
Its such a pain to be here
I want to steer clear of almost everything
But that makes the distances between stops long and lonely
My phone is where my best friend lives
I'm done with them being there
Its clear the distance is the knife in my gut
It f*****g sucks!
Ahhhhhhhhh I'm afraid of living through this time
Everything could be a lie
If it is I'm gonna die
I want to skip to my next life some days
God seems to be staying away these days
Dang the truth hurts but the lies in my mind stay stuck to the skin
Its akin to thorns in my side
I was born to a terrible life
It's been rife with pain that stains my soul
Pulled to the edge by death drugs rape and terrible people
I hate humanity they'd forsake me without blinking an eye
I'm lucky to have some humans who are kind to me
I find my sins are what drag me down
Lust wrath and pride
I'm beside myself with a lack of glee drowned in misery
Can't you see
I'm flying in a sky made of lies
I don't even know if I can really fly
Cause I like to pretend to die~
My god I don't even know my emotions
They all hurt in some way even love
From above they're shiny especially misery
But believe me when it hits you you'll throw a fit
It's s**t like this that makes me such a freak

Author's Note

Criticism is welcome.